Just wanted to share that my DD#1 is in the hospital. She was really ill and we thought it was flu, but it turned out to be an appendicitis.
She had it out and is doing well, but what a scarry thing!
She'll be in the Hospital for about 3 days.
Before I brought her in to the hospital I had to make a quick stop at the funeral of my friends dear only daughter who was 19. She comitted suicide on the 20th and was taken off life support the day before Thanksgiving.
Yesterday was a very gut wrenching day.

There were lots of triggers yesterday as well, Being at the hospital. Last time I was there was 3 days before d-day when DS#2 broke his arm and needed surgery and pins put in. He stayed over night in the room across the hall from where DD is now. When son was there, I can't help remembering how cold and distant my H was to me, did not leave work to come to the hospital and arrived late after his shift. He paid full attention to our son but no regard to how I had been holding up and the next day when he picked us up to go home he did not say 1 word to me, dropped us of and left for work 2 hours early... then went off for his "fishing trip" with OW....leaving me to care for our son alone and all the other kids....

so with all this going on, alot of emotions have been flooding over me the past 48 hours. I have been very quiet and in deep thought. And get a raging migraine as my parting gift! LOL.... grrrr.


Thanks for letting me blow some steam.....

((((Harmonie))))

(((Harmonie)))
I'm sorry to hear about your DD being in the hospital. My H had an appendicitis when we were in college. His appendix was located on his backside, not in the front. It kept him from having the usual pain, so he didn't go to the Dr until a few days had passed. The appendix ruptured and the Dr said we could have lost him. It was scary and it freaked out his parents. I know that IS a scary thing. I hope she starts to feel better soon.

Triggers are everywhere, aren't they? And when you think about the alien that was your WS during the A, it's amazing
how cold they really were. When I think back at who my H was and how he treated me, the anger and pain take hold, but then I look at who he is right now, and it's much better.

Have you taken anything for your migraine that helps? I get them on occasion.

Hope the next 48 hours are better for you.

Thanks Michele,

For the migraines, I usually just need toget a decent 8-10 hours of pure sleep! That is whatmakes them stop!Not usually the easiest thing to do when ya have 4 kids and "other" crap going on...lol.

My DD should be getting released this afternoon so I am happy for that! She is still hurting quitea bit though. She has some super great girlriends and a sweet BF that have beencoming by to cheer her up and so I expect I will have a house full of teenagers visiting tomorrow! Thats is cool with me though, I love her friends and they are such a fun bunch! They keep me cheerful,too, when they are around!

I talked to H about the triggers I had about the last time we were at the hospital and about how I felt. He seemed awfully cold about it. I said I know he'd rather I just stopped bringing up this stuff all together and forget about what he did and move on. He says yeah that would be great, but he knows that wont happen. I again stated I am not going to live a life of conflict aviodance and brush things under the rug. We have to resolve these things in order to move forward. As usual he said he understands.

Well, there is much more on my mind to say about my H but I need to get ready to go get my daughter.
Thanks for your support Michelle, and Movin', Having someone to talk/write to is so important to me.

Just a prayer for you and yours from Wiscowsin.

May the Lord grant you and yours Health and Peace of Mind.

Thanks Walking,
I truely believe in the power of prayer and appreciate it.
We all can use all the prayers we can get.

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