Hi Lynn. I just wanted you to know my heart goes out to you and that I understand your confusion and pain. I certainly understand. I've probably done something that will annoy alot of members, but, instead of re-writing lengthy history of what has happened, I brought several postings to the top that may help. This was a pretty hot topic back in May and June and I thought maybe you may read something that might give you comfort or understanding. What you are going through right now is by far the most painful thing you will ever endure. If you look up Jenny's postings or Smith's or Audrey and some of the others, it may help you on some level. Right now there may not be a rash of this particular situation happening on the board so please go back over the last six months of postings that apply to you. I hope they will help and if you need anything else, you know how to get ahold of me. Take care and God bless. Love Catnip<BR>PS Read Smith and Starpony posts <p>[This message has been edited by catnip (edited September 29, 1999).]