I know that it's over. WH has made it clear that he doesn't want to try. I'm beginning to think there were multiple A's and I was only a paycheck for a kept man. As angry as I am, I still want to hear his voice. Even if it's an argument, I want that phone to ring and his voice be on the other side. I'm sad and I have a cold or flu he gave to me before he left. I just want someone to hold me.

{{{fbwidow}}}

I'm so sorry. Take care of yourself - keep yourself warm and drink plenty of liquids. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" />

Alph.

FB,

You are not alone and it is normal. I still miss my X... Sometimes I would give anything to have her next to me.

FB, it a normal feeling. Get plenty of rest and night time terraflu work best for me.

Are you in plan A or B ?.

-rh-

Plan D. I tried plan A. He made it clear he was only pretending and doesn't even want to try. He's living with his mother and says he has filed the paperwork, although I haven't seen anything yet. Plan B is not financially possible although I have quit calling him unless it is something important (financial, children, etc). However, even that is frustrating because he cannot say two sentences without lying when he does answer his phone. He even lies about little things that are obvious and easy to check out.

I really worry that I will no longer be able to see my step-sons who I have helped raise for the last 9 years. The youngest is in town visiting until Sun morning. I called to make sure he arrived safely and WH said something about a delay and mechanical problems with the plane! He then turn off his cell and never called me back!!! I had to call his XW #1 to find out that their flight was delayed until the next day. WH will not say if he will let me see them before youngest has to leave. Oldest, who goes to college here, will not answer his phone. I know they are being brain-washed by MIL and SIL. (OW is SIL's best friend.)

At least WH's antics have one good effect. I miss the man I married, but I am totally disgusted by the sick coward he has become.

I miss my STBXH voice too. In fact, when he finally called after 3.5 months, I saved every message and relistened to them. However, the "love" wasn't in the tone, very cold, but still his voice.

Now, his loving voice is for another woman..and not me...

so, I deleted them....

That's why I avoid him right now...it is still way to painful, I couldn't imagine seeing him or hearing his voice, let alone seeing him with the OW....

Another nasty bridge for me to cross....

Yes, Orchid always said ... welcome H but NC WH.

This storm in your life will pass. I lost mental image of my exW, even good memory in my M are blurry now. It takes a while but it will cleared up.

Hang in there and happy NY ... 2006 would bring sunshine in our life.

-rh-