found out august 3ed he was talking to someone, and he didnt
want to be with me any more. She is 40, cute blond, and works at this doctors office. he is out doing things he would have never done with me, going to partys, football games basketball games out to dinner every night. when he was with me he was always to tired, sick, or just didnt want to go out. I loved him so much but i was tired of being alone and never going out alway at home. my life was him and now he has two homes (because i was home taking care of him and not out working) so i cant pay the house payments on eather house (make me feel real small). I'm living with my 82 year old father. I hate this and i just want to go home but i dont have one any more. working part time making a big 7.00 an hour. had to move away form my church so when i do go i have to drive 40 miles one way, but i do. I think it is the only thing thats keeping me on this earth. I dont want to hurt any more I dont want to listen to him talk and here all the happiness in his voice and how his life is so much better with her then with me. I know i made some mistakes but nothing as bad as to end our marriage and run off with another woman. i want to stop crying i dont want to wake up in the morning i dont want to face another day. 2005 as been a bad year for me my mother passed away jan 7th, my husband left august 3 and my sister was killed in an auto accident nov 16th and jan 5th 2006 my marriage will be over. oh i forgot i get to get thru christmas with smiles. i wonder what he is doing for christmas and what he is getting her. i feel like my mind is gong to exployed. after 13 years togeather i just get tossed off like a dirty sock. i was the perfect doer picked out his clothing for work every day ironed,cooked cleaned keeped up two homes rubbed his to sleep every night but i forgot about the important things like making him feel important, loved , ect.... to many things spinning in my head. i just keep praying God can stop this and this nightmear stops.

Crushed 21,

I see your story and my heart goes out to you. I think if you take this story to General Discussion or in Recovery it will get more viewers and many more can relate. "Tossed off like a dirty sock" is a good descripton of how most of us feel going through this, and now every time I'm on this site I will picture a pile of dirty socks. Maybe God will sort us all out, pair us off, and I think He won't have to wash us as we're all being washed, agitated, and hung out to dry already. Take your 2005 calender and rip it into tiny pieces............................................
Your buddy, Tunk <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/wink.gif" alt="" />