Hi Nelly, glad you have made an appointment for the GP. If your mind is spinning wanting to know every detail that can be a sign of depression. It just means your body has been over stressed. Make sure to tell the doctor all of your symptoms. I'll make sure to continue to keep you in my prayers.

Hi Nelly,
I am so glad you have an appointment with a doctor. Please be completely honest with him.

I hope you feel better soon.

hello all, i have not been back for a while as i have been working and stressing alot. Although things seem to have settled down for some weird strange reason i seem to have lost my feelings for him. All the things that i wanted so much for years now seem unimportant to me. I was going to the marraige guidance with him but felt it was difficult to move on from that night in December when everything fell apart. The councillor even said she found it difficult to help us unless i moved on from that.I am still living alone but we are still seeing one another everyday and hes been good almost too good to be true. I have just lost that love feeling, i care still and am trying but he wants me to move back and i am not sure what to do. I just dont want to be in a turmoil like i have but things keep on going round and round with the what ifs. I wondered for a while if they were still in contact with one another and i was upset to find that it took him 27 minutes on the phone to tell her not to contact him anymore WHEN 3 SECONDS WOULD HAVE DONE THE TRICK. He seemed to be so nice to her and i cant get that out of my mind and so horrid to me that day in particular. I am trying to think about the good things but it always returns, im wondering if this is something that happens. Perhaps someone can tell me.

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are you signed on right now?

Nelly,

Please give us your current situation.

How are you and the children?

L.

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I imagine that you are taking medication for your back. Maybe this is not letting you think clearly. I am not trying to minimize this at all. My sister recently had serious back surgery as well and it is so painful. PLEASE speak with your doctors about your emotional state. You need help and it is available. Please talk to your doctor immediately. They can help you.

We are here for you.

Please check in with us to give an update. I'll be looking for you. Ok?

Hi nelly,

I am very sorry to hear that you are in so much pain. I imagine you must be feeling pretty overwhelmed.



These are things you CAN control.

If these behaviors make you feel horrible, find some alternative behaviors to replace them with.

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Nelly,

Really, don't you think that maybe all the medications are not letting you think clearly? That's a lot of mind-altering stuff you have to take. My sister had to take some it too and it does make you think some unstable thoughts. PLEASE, PLEASE talk to your doctor to get some relief. TODAY. Do not suffer another day with this.

I absolutely believe that you are going through h$ll and think you are going mad. You NEED a doctor's evaluation for the medications. My sister had to get a psychiatrist just to monitor the meds.

What do you say?

Nelly,

I agree your pain is severe. All the more reason to get help. Let your doctor know about the A and let him perscribe what can help you with the anxiety attacks as well as to help heal your condition.

I will tell you that it c/b worse. WHAT? Yes, it c/b. You are alive and able to communicate. That is a biggie. Now let's get you communicating with a plan, ok?

You can post here as needed. Let us respond and keep us informed of how u r doing. Don't be afraid to talk about this and seek help.

Just so you know. The best looking OW is nothing compared to any W. U hear this? The OW is a wanna be. An imitation. Even if you don't feel pretty or your best, you are still more precious and valuable than any OP.

It is almost midnight here and I have to take my son to the doctor in the morning. There will be others around so post as needed. ok?

Just let us know how u r doing.

Hugz from the middle of the Pacific.

Aloha,
L.

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Hi Nelly,

I'm glad you consulted your GP.
You know - when you say you only feel calm(er) when your H is around, and start going nuts when he's not there - I can totally relate to that feeling, at least for the first months after D-Day.
It's very NORMAL to feel this.
Medication/pain can make these feelings even more intense, sorta like a magnifying glass...
Same for going through everything looking for evidence... it's almost compulsory.
Also very common amongst BS.
You'll get through this, it's a "stage", not something permanent !

I hope you'll feel better with better medication.
Keep talking to your GP if there is no improvement!

Best regards,
Brit

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Nelly,

U r in a phase that will pass. U must know there is life after this phase. It is part of the grieving process most of us when through.

Did you read my other posts to you?

L.

Dear Orchid, yes i did read your posts thankyou, guess what i am on my feet, not brilliant but pain today is somewhat better. Last night i sat and wrote a letter to him. A very heart wrenching letter just asking him if he wants me to go again i will.He says hes gonna try harder to be more affectionate and loving towards me as there is no other woman he would ever want apart from me.He said he wants me never to go away again and he wanted me to say that i know he loves me. He seemed very upset at the letter. do i believe him? Nelly

Nelly,

Howzit going? <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/wink.gif" alt="" />

L.

Not that well Orchid, i am sorry to say but i really do not think a happy ending is on the cards for me. I do so wish it would all stop.My stomach seems like its permanantly sitting in my chest and all i want to do is to run ,run and get as far away as possible from everything. I cannot feel any love and i cannot see it.I know i am probably being an absolute pain in the backside, but go back to the beginning and the reason all this happened was because i made a mistake. one kiss, which has been the kiss of death to our marriage. But think about before that the 20 years not feeling loved and being ignored ,not all the time granted but it was mostly on his terms.I am back to square one.