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Some of the most painful posts to read here ....is the confusion and turmoil of betrayed spouses....
those post D-day days weeks and sadly months in which so many things are left unanswered, unaddressed and emtpy...
be still.....
In our turmoil and chaos and the gnawing need to fix and address.....bs bring into their hearts more pain and crisis....
be still...
There was once a saying I read somewhere that went something like to really ever understand someone else we must crawl inside of them and feel the gentle beat of their heart....
easier probably for a BS to move a mountain than to grasp and work from that realm....
but be still...
each moment of stillness you can buy grab or gobble is a moment in which you are free from the pain and free from the fear..
fear of doing the wrong thing
fear of saying the wrong thing...
the goal is not marriage rebuilding at any cost...
the goal is guiding yourself to a place of stillness...no matter the outcome....
the anatomy of a WS is that they changed and molded their own thought processes so that they could engage in a affair....
they did this....
they did this....over time and in a way in which they can barely see the reality of this...but they did do it...
be still
it takes time.....
too many posts are from BS with unrealistic EXPECTATIONS which will harm you...
it is unrealistic to think that the thought processes needed to engage in such vile actions....vanishes over night
working through affair issues takes time...gobs and gobs of it...
and if you find yourself standing in a place of demanding change and specified responses, introspection, apologies, and instant change...
be still
for you are causing more grief that you need to burdon....
they did this...and they must undo this...
will they?
the truth is we don't know..
but to ever be a whole person again they darn well better...otherwise they carry their chaos on and on..and in the end no BS needs to burdon that.....
WS, though hard to see when they have used you as a weapon are very very damaged inside.....
they can not face that damage...and since that damage is YOU the BS...they often can not face you..
so they continue to waffle and wallow in the path that brought them to this place...
the way of rationalizing and justifying downright no two ways about it dispicable behavior acts....
force them to the face and process at once..
they will withdrawal
they will deny
they will retaliate
or even worse they will self destruct themselves....
be still....
don't force responses and actions and answers...be still and know that their non-responses , non actions and non answers ARE their answers....and you can hold them accountable to that
be still
and then make your moves....
ARK^^
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Wow! 'nuff said...thanks Ark!
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Thank's for the post. I needed that today.
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There are people in the world so hungry, that God cannot appear to them except in the form of bread.
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Ark,
You are always like a breath of fresh air...I needed to hear this today after a long week. You have always provided me with insight and helped to refocus my energies on myself.
Thank you for your insight and wisdom!
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Married 14 yrs
DS 4/2000
DD 12/2002
DD 8/2005
PA 1/05 - 9/12/05
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Status: Trying to rebuild
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Right on, Ark, right on!
Thank you.
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be still
and then make your moves.... didn't you mean to say "be still and then make your movies" ????????? <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/wink.gif" alt="" /> really great Ark
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I THINK THIS IS WONDERFUL!!
For me, this brought to mind: "BE STILL..AND KNOW THAT I AM GOD"
For when I AM STILL, I FEEL AND KNOW THAT HE IS WITH ME...I CAN FEEL HIS PRESENCE....
It's a BS coping skill.."LET GO AND GET GOD"
I made it happen..a joyful life..filled with peace, contentment, happiness and fabulocity.
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Ark, your words are wise, as ever Dear Lady.
I would also add that a BS ( and maybe FWS of good heart too) should take heart from their ACTIONS and intent, not from the immediate results of those actions.
There is contentment to be found even amidst the chaos, when you take moments to consider your actions and intent and you find them to be brave and noble. I have learned this.
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Ark
Thank you for that.
I needed to hear it...again
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Beautifully said ARk..... I really needed this today....
Thanks Pep for the bump.....
I just printed this out so I can read it when I get myself to the point of wanting to say or do something.... This can help me stay grounded and not make a mistake......
Last edited by hurtinginokla; 01/13/06 03:48 PM.
BS (Me)- 47 WH - 46
Married- 24 yrs
3 children 15,19,22
2 grandsons
D-Day- June17, 2005 while I was 1400 miles away
WH living with OW since July 05
WH filed divorce papers Dec. 22, 05
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Very wise. I now understand why WH has probably not tried to contact me. He can't face me.
I have been very still and have not lost hope.
Thank you
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Ark,
I am such an edgey, pissy mess right now. Thank you for the reminder that this takes time....and to be still. That is a tall order for me sometimes...wanna get to the "better" part of this.
Formerly known as ItHurtzSoBad
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"If you have integrity nothing else matters. If you don't have integrity, nothing else matters." ~Alan Simpson
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I am such an edgey, pissy mess right now. I for one have been there many many times... <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/wink.gif" alt="" /> be well.. move slowly,,, ARK
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very good advice that "be still"
it is when you can do no more, when there is nothing else you can do, when miracles happen
we take it so far and then God brings us home
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Dear Ark,
Thanks. These words let me know that someone understands exactly where I am...I feel so much loneliness and pain sometimes and just want to scream..."Tell me, Tell me, Tell me...what is it that you plan to do?...do you want me, her?...how long do I wait?" I haven't screamed yet. Sometimes I think I'm silently screaming...then I think of calming things, soothing things, try to refocus my energies and ignore that stomping noisy "elephant in my living room."
This morning I read your post and I cried. It validated my feelings and in my heart and soul I believe your suggestion is what is right for me...it is agonizing at times. I'm just so lonely. Why, why, why should I be rising above all the time...it just hurts so much...I feel quite a bit like a fool...I can't help but think am I being fooled.
Thanks again, your words are so kind...what a thoughtful person you are.
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