.... I read Plan A/Plan B and I also read the 5 stages of grieving and they have been very helpful. Thanks for the advice.
Orchid: Good, keep reading. Looks like u may need to read Love must be Tough by Dr James Dobson. Read His Needs/ Her Needs by Dr Harley.
Last night my H told me he no longer felt anything and felt the sooner one of us moved out the better. I could not believe the way he just stood there as if he couldn't care less the pain he was causing.
Orchid: Yea, that's the WS babbling. Can you tell the difference yet?
Here's how can answer such stupid babble......
WS: One of us needs to move out. I no longer feel anything for you.
BS: Is that so? Well then you'd better start packing, this is my home and WS' are not wanted here.
NOTE: Refer to him as a WS in the 3rd party mode. Call the OW by her last name. I used to call the OW (Mrs. ________ ) and did not use her 1st name. Kept her more distant and always reminded the WS that the OW did not have my name. She wanted it though. Even signed in hotels as Mrs. M). <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/mad.gif" alt="" />
He says I should just get on with my life 'cause he's no longer interested. He is so callous about it that I think I should file for divorce because I worry that if I leave it to him he will abandon the kids without a second thought. So I am taking your advice and securing my finances and identifying boundaries.
Orchid: More babble. As for filing. Do it when u r ready. Many WS want to push the BS to do the D work for them.....don't let him get to you this much. Instead when he throws it at you, don't fight it, just throw it back.... like:
WS: u need to go and get a D. I don't love you anymore.
BS: Really..... well then hurry up and get that D.
Many a WS get thrown off when the BS throws it back.
The pain is still hard to deal with but I am looking for the necessary support. I live outside the US so I can't have MC with the Harley's though I would love to. I do have the books and I am reading them and putting them into practice. They have been of great help so far.
Orchid: It is painful. If you can't utilize the phone counseling, ready the books and keep posting here.
take care,
L.