Just went to the doctor's office this morning. Last Sunday while sitting in church, I think I had an anxiety attack so I decided I needed to get it checked out.

Knowing my father's history of heart problems, the Dr gave me an EKG and after seeing the results reffered me to a cardiologist.

Great, now the stress has finally caught up. Ever since this started, I've stopped going to the gym, stopped fighting (MMA) and running and have been eating like a horse. I feel like garbage every day.

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FN

FN when was DDay?

Still not familiar with all the terms, but the day I found out she was having an EM, was the day before Thanksgiving, the day I found out they slept together was about a month ago. I asked her for an NC two weeks ago and Monday will read the NC letter to her in front of the MC because she couldn't commit to the verbal one.

I posted it here - NC Letter to WW


FN

FN,

The real issue here is she going to send the NC letter? It has to come from her or it will get you nowhere.

If her A is still ongoing then expose away like no tomorrow.

At first I got the impression that she was home and NC had been committed to by her.

On the issues of your health it will get better. I've gained and lost more weight now than Richard Simmons and Oprah combined. I've been at this for six months and only in the last few weeks have I started to feel physically normal again.

Just stay away from the recovery trinity if you can...

You know Jack Daniels, Country Music, and Cigarettes.

I recommend that you post some over on recovery. A lot of GREAT advice is to be had over there also but a lot of those folks won't wander to far into this side of the forum because it can be pretty painful for them.

Best wishes in recovery,
Plank.

Sugar...a lot of us have med issues now. Our bodies are not used to the constant fight or flight insticts they now have forced on them. I dropped 50 lbs. in a few weeks. Irritable bowl syndrome...yep....(and that's so sexy lemmee say)...high blood pressure that was controled by meds now skyrocketed...and anxiety attack after attack.

First and FOREMOST out of all of this is that you gotta learn how to take care of you first. I don't think there is anyone out there that would argue that WS' are the most selfish, self absorbed things out there and they are not going to notice and make you take care of yourself.

The BS diet is just that - BS. Either eating too much or not eating at all, it's something we BS's have control over. We choose what and how much (if at all) we put in our mouths. Sometimes, it's all we feel we can control.

Be careful. Recognize your actions for what they are. You cannot control anxiety attacks, but you can stave them off with meds. Only you can take care of your heart...that was true b4 the A and it's true now...doubly so b/c you have to do it not only for you but for your kids.

Yeah. It sucks not being able to rely on WS right now. But you can do this. If you need help or a shoulder, we're here.

- Kimmy

Plank,

she's at home with me and we still sleep in the same bed. She told me she would try the NC but couldn't promise. I told her I'd follow the request up with a letter asking the same thing. She says it's been about two weeks since she's talked to him but I don't know.

Hopefully, she'll officially agree to the NC and send the letter off to him. I figure, if he doesn't respond to my letter, it will reveal the kind of snake I think he really is.


FN