I used to post here a while back, then quit. My story is long. To make a long story short, I cheated. Was regretful, remorseful..can't put into words how terrible I feel for what I've done. He filed 1 1/2 yrs ago, decided to try and reconcile. Then he cheated (though he denies it). We have decided to go through with the divorce. I haven't, he has. There is nothing I can do but go along with him and give him what he wants. I long for him. I had so much faith that we could make it work and make it better than it ever was, I had so much faith in him-not necessarily to forget but to forgive as time passed. But it is not going to happen. I want it to work so bad, but at the same time I have had enough of his lies, he is hateful towards me. And I know I deserve that. I just need some kind of advice on how I can go about getting over him and moving past this. Are there any wayward spouses on here who are in this same situation who could offer some help. Any wayward spouses who actually know what they've done, lost their marriage and still survived- with a happy life?

I meant to say WW OR WH.

Well, in my first marriage I was a WW.

At the time I just wanted to get away from the marriage to quit feeling the pain. It's a LONG huge story that I won't bore you with.

I got out rather than fess up to what I did. It took me a long time to do that. I didn't leave my exhusband for the OM.

I met someone else and we recently got married. Ironically, he was a BS- his wife had cheated on him and was pg by the OM before their divorce was final.

I've been reading, and I've done IC to see the issues that I had that contributed to the affair. I'm going to continue to stay at MB to make sure that this time this marriage is a success.