I wish the roller coaster would stop! As of a couple of weeks ago, I was certian I was on the path to becoming a 46 y/o single Dad and was (am) OK with it. Now, WW states she isn't sure what she wants, stay and work on the M, go with OM or go it alone. Just when I think we are making progress and the contact with the OM stops, it starts all over again! It seems that I am in an endless nightmare that I've created with self depreciating behavior!

I check the cell phone logs and see she's been talking to him it stabs my heart like a knife reliving every moment of the original D date. It hasn't gotten any easier through the last 9 months and I don't expect it will in the future. Sure, I work on things to make myself happy, time with my kids, reading, going out once in awhile but the pain remains.

I think it's my fear of the unknown that hurts the most. Not knowing what my WW will decide and me having no control over the situation.

Thanks for listening.......

I'm sorry you are going through this. I wish I had something profound to say to help you along, but being in a situation myself where an A has occurred, I have no advice. Just an ear to listen or a shoulder to cry on. I hope everything works out & that your wife is willing to give up the OM to work out your marriage.

She is starting IC tomorrow. I hope it helps her sort things out......