I was just thanking everybody for their support of me and my H right now and again THANKS!! But now I have a major set back to deal with. First of all I don't think I have ever put our "story" on one of my threads and while I don't have the time to get into the whole story now my H and I have been married 5 1/2 years he had an affair with a 19 yr. old girl and swears they were in love. He supposedly ended the thing like 7 different times but I kept finding evidence that he was lying to me. I really want to believe that he is being honest this time but of course trust is difficult to come by right now. The major set back was that I was looking for an e-mail address (honestly) and found suspicious e-mails. Nothing recent but I found an e-mail he originally sent to the OW initiating the actual A. The MAJOR problem is I found a TON of e-mails he had written to an ex-girlfriend from over a year and half ago. They exchanged e-mails for like 6 months talking about what they lost and what could have been and how much they meant to each other. Also, my husband writes songs and there is a really special song he wrote to me when we were dating and he told her he had written it for her. I confronted him and he said he was sorry. I was appauled. It also brought out a REAL conversation about our relationship and he said he has always been unhapilly married and that he has never been sexually attracted to me and although he wants to make it work he doesn't know how to fix the problem. All my wounds have been torn back open and I'm devastated. What do I do now??? I need advice, ideas, explaination, comfort SOMETHING!! If anyone can offer hope I would appreciate it.

Kand1ce

It sounds like he is still very much in the fog from the last relationship. It does seem like he enjoys having a fantasy life though.