I am in the final stages of my divorce waiting for the settlement papers and then if they are Ok I guess we are almost through. I am just sad that after 14 years of marriage and two children we are at this point.

He calls a lot, but never says anything about working this out, just comments about what he needs to buy for the house, etc. He will be moving into our family home and I will be moving out with the children. That also makes me sad.

Some days I just wake up in a fog and wonder what happened and wish we could go back, but I know that is not possible. My H has had a friend for the past year and a half and is still talking to her. I told him I could not work on anything as long as she is in the picture. Promised me she was out and then he called her two days later.

Part of me hopes that if we do divorce once I get relocated and all maybe he will miss me and the family, but I think I am dreaming. He has told me he will not come begging back - not that he has even indicated he wants to come back with true feelings. He mentions it but does not want to do any work just wants me to pretend like nothing happened.

Sorry I am babbling just a down day. I am hoping that they go away sometime soon.

Thanks.