getting ready to take bubble bath...go to starbucks and then get mani/pedi...ahhh!
was supposed to go to church and accidentally overslept (work)...bleech.
so am gonna do that then go to park for a nice run...only after feet are NOT smearable.
date tomorrow night w/very nice guy. date tonight with xbf..
it is so different being really single vs. what my xh fell into (load of poo)...I can wake up on my single weekends and do what I want. he can't. I can relax, go for run, get pedi/mani or a massage...he has to explain everywhere he goes. I can have dates...with MORE THAN ONE PERSON. he can't, but he tries to.
I do not have to answer to anybody if I want to go with my girlfriends on my single mom weekends when ds is with xh.
Irony this weekend was that my xh sent me a week ago an invite to a dating club (multiple clubs) event....and we snuck in (a girlfriend and I) and never went in...was for older people...lmao. well it totally backfired on xwh. for I now feel even younger than i did before friday. and afterwards, myself and my buddy went to a well known spot where young (meaning younger than me) professionals hang out and we still looked the same age...weird.
I think that it is so much more fun for us in the end being reinvented rather than drudging along in a relationship based on lies, pain and immorality. I mean, my xh DID NOT EVEN HAVE ONE WEEK AS A SINGLE MAN ...not ever. deep down he wanted to...wanted to sooo bad.
and I know it's hard being single. we live on one income, not two like the affairees do. financially that's it pretty much. and maybe sf. but that's on its way I can feel it as I am moving ahead with a few guys but will wait until serious committment (engagement most likely)..if not, gonna get one of the cataloges that a friend of mine got from a party she attended. can we say brown paper gift wrapping please?
On single girl/mom weekends, I can go whereever I want. I do not have to lie or cheat just to taste freedom. to get that, my xh has to lie or cheat.
and when I fall in love, I will be able to gaze into the eyes of the man who I trust...there will be no hidden agendas, no betrayal of trusts, and there will be no hearts crushed as a result of our relationship with each other.
can the xws do that? heck no. when they look into eyes of the op, they see the actions...they see HOW THEY GOT THERE..
IT AIN'T PRETTY FOLKS.
so I am off to go to my bubble bath. and to have fun today.
where's my xh? probably trying to escape to his office to do some "work" there...that was his old lie. anything. anything to escape what's become of his life.
as for me, I am trying to expand what has become of my life now.
aren't the contrasts staggering?
did you ever think of our situations this way?
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