She told me last saturday she just needed her space - she wanted to go out with her friends from work / without me.
This does sound like something to pay attention to.
When she says space - what does this mean and how do I give it to her without giving too much - or too little.
Have you asked her what this means and what it is that's resulting in her feelings? Does she feel pressured by you in some way? Have you shared with her your concerns over the effect that "too much space" can cause?
If you can state it in a way that focuses your concerns on the damage it can cause to your marriage, rather than strictly on how it affects you, she may be a little more receptive, given that caring for the marriage shows regard for both parties, instead of just one or the other.
What is the source of her anger?
Have you asked her to fill out the EN Questionnaire?
As far as visiting your family, have you shared your concerns with her? I understand what you are trying to say, but if it is stated to her the way you stated it here...
I am afraid she may be testing me and may give us a huge reason to fight.
It could be perceived as blaming or accusatory and could possibly cause her defenses to rise.
Maybe you could just share with her that you are concerned with any friction it could cause and tell her you are interested in discussing some ways to combat it.
I recently came across a communication technique that has been very helpful for my H and myself. If you care to read it, it could give you some insight into communicating with her in a manner that is constructive and avoids causing further damage to an already difficult situation for you both.
Here is the communication technique:
This communication technique is comprised of three elements -
mirroring/validating/empathizing
The net effect is that it offers an opportunity for both people to have the experience of being accurately heard, validated as worthwhile human beings, and bonded in empathy.
Mirroring - I am listening so carefully that I can mirror back to you what you've just said.
Validating - I affirm you and your right to have these feelings and hold these opinions.
Empathizing - I can enter into your world and feel what you are feeling.
Mirroring
1.) You recognize that you have something you want to share with your partner (it's best to start with something positive until the process begins to feel more natural, at which time you can use the technique to talk about concerns or frustrations).
2.) Begin by thanking your partner for his/her willingness to talk with you.
3.) State the essence of your message. Make it an "I" message and focus on what you see, think, hear, feel, or desire and then STOP.
4.) Your partner mirrors your message back. Mirroring, in this sense, means responding with an accurate paraphrase. If you find that difficult, you can start by mirroring the exact words. The goal is for your partner to repeat your communication without adding or subtracting anything else. When you are finished, your partner asks if the mirror was accurate.
5.) You say, "Yes, you got it" or "No, not quite." If the mirror was not accurate, you repeat your message once again. Your partner then attempts to mirror you again. Repeat Steps 3-5 until your partner mirrors you accurately.
6.) After confirmation that the mirror is accurate, your partner asks, "Is there more about that?" If so, you say it, and your partner mirrors your additional communication accurately. When the mirror is accurate and you have no more you want to say, your partner then says: "Let me see if I got all of that," and then he offers a summary of all he has heard. The summary reflects the substance of what you said, and avoids the tendency to simply respond to the last words we heard.
Validating
This part can be a little tricky. Most people think of validating as synonymous with agreeing. Whether you agree with what has been said or not doesn't matter. You are supporting the notion that "truth" is subjective, that every person is entitled to his or her own feelings and point of view, and that your perspective doesn't issue forth from the center of the universe.
Your partner has valid reasons for seeing the world as he or she does. It's not for you or anyone else to dismiss or demean these views or even try to change them.
Examples of validating statements:
- I get what you are saying, and you make sense.
- I can see how you would think about it that way.
- I absolutely see what you are saying and why.
It makes sense that you...
- I can see that you have given this plenty
of thought, and I can see what you are saying.
- I didn't know you thought about it like that,
but now that you tell me, I can see how that
makes sense.
- I want to understand you better and what you've
just said helps me enormously.
Empathizing
The empathetic message is:
You are not alone. Although I recognize that we are separate individuals, I can feel at least some of what you are feeling.
To get a sense of how important empathy is, imagine an interchange where your partner accurately mirrors you, and states your right to have your feelings, but is dead to any empathetic understanding of what your experience has been. This encounter would make you feel alien and alone.
Impairment of this capacity causes a bigger gulf between two people than an impairment of language. Two people who speak different languages can still connect through their ability to put themselves in each other's place.
There is no need to be defended or ready for battle. Instead, the sender thinks, "Oh! My partner understands and is sympathetic. I guess I don't need to brace myself for the onslaught or push harder to get my point across. I am being seen and heard. I'm not alone."
Specific ways to express empathy to your partner:
- After listening to you, I am feeling
your (sadness, anger, happiness) and I
am feeling (sad, angry, happy) , too.
- I can imagine that what you've told me makes
you feel (sad, angry, happy). I'm so
glad you told me about it.
- I really feel like I can feel where you're
coming from now. Thank you for sharing this
with me.
This would then involve switching places.