thank you larousse
You are absolute right!...
Im the one with problems, I need to forgive myself, and know me enough to avoid my bad behaviour..
I need professional help, but I dont know how I can schedule it because Im so buzy and I need to spend time with my family... but I need to do something..
And yes first is to think and no react...
Yesterday I hug my H and said him Im realy sorry, I just was frustrated, and angry, I need to be a better person in order to deal with my anger, and never never, do same thing again...
At the beginning my H refuses my arms, I realized how damage I cause him because my inmature behaviour... I realized so many things.... and I insist, in a good manner and finaly he responsed to my hug both cried together,,, it last just few minutes but that hug means too much for me
He said with tears in his eyes, that he loves me... (sometimes I think he doesnt love me, but this is my problem)
you lines "Remmember that a needy, crying, nagging wife is not attractive", gives me something to think, I havent been a good wife... and even my H is cold right, he has the reason to be this way.. and I think I can ask for something that I havent done first.
I need to do something with the thing that I just can write in this site from my office.. I need too much work to do and I need to express my feelings, here... I want to share my case and I like to share it because this can be useful for someone... Feeling that we are not alone is a good beginning.
Thanks for all that have use their time to post and suggest me somethings and shared their feelings.