How are you? What happened when WW came home?

Confused,

I am struggling, not health wise doing much better there, but thanks for asking. It seems when it rains it pours.

W was not much different when she came home, although she did say she realized that she missed me when she was gone. That was the only step forward that we have taken. At least at this time seems like the right direction.

I just found out this week what kind of trouble we are in for taxes. I knew when I took over the finances in December that we did not have enough to cover taxes, but did not know for sure what the damage was going to be. On top of trying to get things on the right path with our marriage I find out this week that we are over $10,000.00 in the whole for taxes.

I don't know if I can do this any longer. I really feel like filing for D and Bankruptcy and starting from scratch. I believe I learned a big enough lesson that I will not make the same mistakes twice, but I don't think I have the strength to repair this.

Sorry for the little pitty party I am throwing myself right now, but this is how I feel today.

-BB

Wow...talk about major life stressors.
We underpaid taxes last year and had to go on an installment plan with the IRS. They were reasonable. (That seems like an oxymoron).

Wait on D...its expensive. My lawyer charges $250/hr so I am trying to get as much in place as I can...its slower but cheaper.

What are you doing for yourself? Are you eating, sleeping, exercising? Do you have support in real life?

I know its really hard but be patient. Remember babysteps...one thing at a time. First of all take care of yourself and the kids, fill her EN when/if she allows...don't push it.

Confused,

I am actually pushing the "reset button" as my IC calls it. He is making sure I understand it is not running away. I am going out of state tomorrow to our branch office to stay for a couple of weeks. I will be staying with the other owners of my company and that will make me focus on work, and also make W focus on the kids. I think that we both need this right now. I am not looking at it as running or a separation, but more of a "work release" program from the he11 that is my life right now.

My IC thinks this is the best thing for both of us. He thinks that if I can get my mind off of obsessing about the problems and focus on my work that the rest of everything will come into place. Also, by making W focus on the kids that will remind her of what she is missing and the role that I play.

So, for me right now I guess it is Plan C and hopefully be able to really do a great Plan A when I return. Wish me luck.

-BB