Good morning all,

I hope everyone slept great and is ready to have a super day.

Soon, did you have a good night?

Got to go, catch up tomorrow.

It's just not fair at all! I'm all alone today. Thankful, are you out there? I don't think I can cope anymore without anyone to chat and laugh with.

I guess you'll read this tomorrow Tired. Hope your having fun at the dairy farm while I'm sitting here at my desk slaving away like a borrowed mule. I guess I will just post today as if someone were actually reading this, and you can catch up tommorrow.

Last night, was awful. I don't think I will ever eat another Whopper as long as I live. Lets just say it didn't agree with me...I wondered at one point if I needed to go to the ER. I seriously think I had some kind of food poisoning. So, between that and packing up more stuff...it was such an exciting evening let me tell you.

I had only brought home five boxes, and I haven't even made a small dent in all the stuff I have to pack. I'm thinking I had better get a move on. I almost got the boys closests cleaned out, I packed up some stuff that was too little for the oldest to save for the baby. And that was about it. I never realized how much clothes they had!

I have two more boxes left, so tonight I'm going to attack my closet which wont be too hard. It needs to be cleaned out anyway.

I didn't get to talk to the oldest last night. H called at 10:15 and I was already asleep. I didn't even hear the phone ring. I was disappointed that I didn't get to tell my baby good night. But I was so tired and sick that after 24 went off, I was a goner. I woke up late this morning. I know that I turned the alarm on last night, I must have gotten up this morning and turned it off. Next thing I know, it's 7:55 AM. Talk about getting ready in a hurry.

Dr. appt went well, he just gave me a script for the AD's and told me that I'd need to make a mental note of what I'm eating, since they can make you gain weight. I don't like that part at all. I'm not eating anymore than I did before I started taking them so maybe I won't gain any. I can't gain any weight. No way. Being depressed at times it bad enough, who wants to be fat and depressed. Not me.

I wonder if H is coming back from Fl tomorrow. I actually hope that he stays. Is that mean? I'm trying to find somewhere close to home and fairly cheap to take the boys to. I wish it would warm up some. Both of the boys love the water but it's just to danged cold right now to swim.

Well, I guess I'll get off of here. If anything exciting happens I'll hop back on.

Good morning Soon <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" />
I saw your post on the other forum. Thanks <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" /> I still plan to post here, but wanted to get the recovery perspectives also. I am not abandoning you guys.

Things are ok. Talked to H last night & sometimes he still has the habit of calling me "hon" - last night was the first time he acknowledged it himself (I never bring it up, just make mental notes of it) and he said "I think that is a GOOD thing" I said "really...it's just a habit" and he said "yeah, but I still think it is a GOOD thing" - so we shall see how things go. I see so much changing going on all since the A ended - now we just have to see if we can make this work. I hope it is just a matter of time, really. We've been talking so much more & he is just acting so much better since the A has been over. He is WAY less depressed and WAY less negative so as I said, I hope it is just a matter of time...I'm hanging in there...patient as can be when I am around him. And hopefully those A/Ds are starting to kick in.

I am so mad at myself though...I started smoking again. I had quit for SEVEN years - ugh. I can't let him know though - he would freak, but oh well if he figures it out. I know it isn't good but I am doing it. BAD BAD GIRL.

Sorry you had a rough night w/the whopper. Yuck! I hope it wasn't bad. I had food poisoning once and it was the most awful experience esp. since I was away and traveling on company business in FL. All alone in a hotel with food poisoning was the WORST.

I smoke every now and again. It's bad I know. But it is comforting. I don't do it in front of H or the kids. Just mainly at work, if I'm bored. Everyone here smokes too so it makes it a lot harder.

How is your H doing with the throwing up deal? I know he was real sick in some of your last posts on here. Was it a bug? Or a nervous stomach? Probably the later.

But, you guys sound like you are on the right track. Just try to remain patient with him.

I still think it was nerves that had him throwing up. He is doing better with that although he did pass out yesterday which is NOT good. The man needs to get some sleep. He is NOT sleeping, so between that, his nerves and not eating well either, he is falling apart.

He is coming this afternoon to p/u DS from preschool. Not sure if he is staying over or not. He said he was, but who knows. I guess it depends on his frame of mind. Patience, patience, patience...

Well, Thankful, I had posted. But I see it's not on here. I don't know what happened.

Has your husband seen a dr.? AD's? It sounds as if all of this mess really has taken a toll on him. If he doesn't start taking care of himself it's just going to cause more problems, whether it be personal or physical.

Just take care of him. And I know that you are. Once again, you are doing great woman!

Still praying for you...just wanted you to know.

HEY SOON, I'M BACK!!!!!!!

Now you tell me about the Whopper. You "flung a cravin'" on me yesterday, so I had one for lunch today. Hope I'm not sick all night.

How's your day been? Mine was usual. I drove 5 hours to talk to a guy for 20 minutes. Typical. I thought about you will I was standing there in the cow poop. Just kidding!

Hope I catch you before you leave, if not, talk to you tomorrow.

Thankful,

Sounds like you are doing great. I would give you a "you go girlfriend", but it would probably come off as gay, and I ain't. Anyway, keep up the tough love (love with all your heart, but set some boundaries) and he will come around. Sounds like the fog is lifting nicely with him, so be patient. I'm proud of you.

NOW YOU SHOW UP! Do you know how hard of a time I've had today? And now it's time to go home! Dang it. Dang it. Dang it.

It makes me so happy to know that you thought of me while standing in cow dung! No one has ever said that to me before! LOL.

If I don't hear from you before I get outta here, then I'll talk to you tomorrow. Hope you had a great day and have a good evening too! Sleep well, OK?