I´´m from guatemala city but I´ve been living in the united states since I got married almost 8 years ago, My husband is american.
I was 23 years old when I got married, I was so happy and I tought that my marriage would be perfect.
until I discovered my husband masturbating a year after our weeding. that hurted me a lot, but I let it go.
He continued doing that all the time. then I discovered him watching pornography. that was 4 years ago.
I didn´t say anything. but it hurted me a lot. I didn´t have the courage to confront him.
I discovered on his computer a lot of downloaded videos and pictures of naked men and homosexual orgies.
I was in shock and I didn´t know what to do. first I wanted to divorce. but I was affraid to take that step. I had two babies I didn´t work.
His behavior had affected our marriage for a long time. I´ve been with him because I don´t want my kids to suffer. but it has been a nightmare for me.
I was suffering in silence until about a month ago. I finally told him I knew everything and that I was tired of it and that I wanted the divorce.
He was in shock. but now he wants me to forgive him and start all over again. he denies to be attracted by men or that he is homosexual. He says he was watching men because He tought It was less bad to watch man that women. wich I think it is totally ridiculous. because I saw him masturbatin while watching men having sex.
He says he is going to change and he is going to stop doing it but I don´t know what to do.
I took me a long time to make the desicion. and now that I decided to get divorced he is beging me to forgive him.
what shoul I do?
Do you think that this marriage can be fixed?
I have no hope and I don´t know if I ever can trust him again.
Thanks so much for reading my story and I hope you have an answer for my questions. please excuse my bad english. I speak spanish.
thank you so much

Problems can always be fixed if everyone wants to work on their part of the problem. In this case it's your husbands problem so he has to be willing to work on HIS problem. More than likely he has a sex addiction. Take a look at www.recoverynation.com and review the information there or www.sa.org for some of their information.

" If this is your first contact with a Twelve-Step program, you may have some questions about what we do at meetings and how our group works. We will try to answer some of those questions here, but please feel free to contact the S-Anon International Family Groups World Service Office at (800) 210-8141 or (615) 833-3152, or send an e-mail to sanon@sanon.org, if there is anything you don't understand. Specific meeting locations can also be obtained by contacting the World Service Office or, in some cases, by calling an area hotline number. "

Try looking at the S-Anon site - 12 step group like AlAnon....www.sanon.org