CO
well im on that roller coaster today i cant get "whats she doing right now" off my mind sitting in my office is making me crazy.

to make it worse i cant get STERN in this freakin office

As I said earlier, it is going to be HARD no matter what you decide to do. Stay strong, focus on the positives in your life, your children, your job, etc., etc. That is what I try to do when I'm down. Think of YOUR plans for youself in the future. You can do it!! Plan and conquer <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" />

HEY THANKS BUT I JUST REALIZED that music calms the savage beast so i threw on sum old 80's music PM DAWN!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. i better now

Heard Puttin out Fire with Gasoline at the pharmacy today....that's a goodie.

Sorry your beast was restless, Saenz. I had to put mine back on Paxil starting today......ARGH!

- Kimmy

OUCH paxil huh!!!!

hey bro....Que Bueno????

sounds like you had kinda a tuff wknd....

just put it behind you...whud you say earlier???

""1 day @ time...""


very profound!!!!

well i had a great day after 5pm yesterday!!!! W got paid she seems to of honored her financial agreement to me.

also she found a place even though i dont like the area but thats her cross to bare if something happens to our kids.
even though she can't get into the apt. for 30 days.

i told her that no way am i waiting another 30 days till she moves out so we agreed that she would put her stuff in
storage.

but the real reason im in such a good mood is that i went to the boxing gym and got so much anger out not to mention how much cardio i got in i'll be at my target weight of 195
in no time im at 218 right now down from 250 in 4 months.
yessssssssssssssss ssiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiirrrrrrrrrrrr......

thank god i hope i keep feeling like this i hope all you guys can feed of my positive energy today....... <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" />

well came home today to catch her crying cause her dad yelled at her becouse ss called his gm told her that his other gm was being mean to him.

so of course she starts in the whole no one likes me!

i told her yeah and. well maybe not that mean but i did hold her 4 a while but a good thing was i didn't kiss her at all.

oh well at least i got to take the boys to the soccer fields and play w/ them 4 a little while.

hope everyone had a good day if not better..

dude....

dosent that kinda piss you off...she only wants you WHEN she NEEDS you.....its ALL bout her....

good for you, you did ok with comfort, but dont take it too far....she needs to hit rock bottom before she will ever realize the hurt she has caused to alot of people....i dont think shes there yet....

just keep taking care of yourself physically, and stay active with your kids!

yeah even though i think i showed her to much attention its all good though before she left i reminded her to finish packing her stuff so i can put all her junk in storage.

nice parting shot!!

thanks sturg
god last night around 10pm my time i seen her dad online and asked him if she made it home and she had but then he started to tell me he was upset w/ her because of the fight they had earlier.

he also started to tell me that he no longer wants to live and i just heard the same from the W earlier and that no one likes her and everyone hates her but i reasured her that i'm the onlyone who hates her.

her whole family is a little messed up i always thought my FIL was holding up pretty good but hes starting to show signs of extreme depression over the loss of his son 3 yrs. ago.

well i hope you all have a good day and can take a step forward in the right direction.

hey saenz,

Sorry I haven't checked in lately. As you know, I've been busy with my own problems. Things are going better for me. I updated on my thread if you want to check it out.

I see you've made some progress. I think you are doing such a great job with the way you are handling your situation. Good for you for being there when she needed you. I know in your head you were probably thinking, "Oh, now I'm good enough." But you still were there for her. And as sturg said, I liked the parting shot too.

Seems like you are really staying strong and following your plan!! Good for you! Keep pressing forward!!

I also agree with sturg that it doesn't seem you WW has hit rock bottom yet.

Hey, BTW, I know you live in Florida. We are going there in June to Disney. Do you know of anyplace to get discounted park tickets?? I'm looking for 4 6-day hopper passes. Let me know if you can help <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/cool.gif" alt="" />

Have a good day!

--CO

CO
why is it so hard for people to forgive and try to move on and fix things shes so hard headed if she only know ho wmuch i care for her and our family and that i would never be that non-helping H she was used to. she doesn't realize i'm awake now yet im the one wanting to work on our marriaige and she still hold crap like telling people about
problems.

i'll have to see about those tickets though it would of been great if we could of worked things out we could of meet you guys up there and hung out for a day.

love truely hurts....especially when you know you have changed for the better and the person is to stuburn or proud to notice it...and would rather go it alone..
than admit there faults as well. so you could move on as a family.

I know it is so hard for you. Like I said numerous times, she is in a fog. She isn't thinking clearly. If she was, she'd get her a$$ back home and bring her family back together. I know you want to be a great H to her and I'm sure you even were before. You have to understand WSs are selfish people. They don't think of anyone but themselves!!

Thanks for looking into the tickets. It would be cool to meet up. We are going with another family too. I hope it's not too hot!!

Have a good day!!

--CO

well MB the unthinkable happened and she wants to get back together she wants to work on the marriage. out of te blue i was floored and was in aw i didn't ask why or what happened i just said no that i didn't want her back after all we've been threw.

just kidding i told her yes an dwe both set some ground rules and arer going to take it slow but atleast she wants to fix it thank the lord now i hope shes going to hold up her end so that i can show her the world..

i'll being need some help here soon i have to go back and read up on en's and all that good stuff. i hope this is good...... wish my family luck we got a 2nd chance.....

First of all, I am really happy for you <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" />.

I just want to warn you to be very, very cautious. Keep your gurad up. Has she apologized yet? Has she admitted her wrongdoing? I don't want to see you have a false hope.

Also, you both need to put 100% into the marriage. If she is not willing to fight, it will not work.

I am only new here so I may be way off on this. I'll let the pros handle this one.

sturg what's your take on this??

I truly wish you the best saenz. I don't want to see you get hurt again, nobody here does <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/frown.gif" alt="" />

--CO

she apoligized today and told me all as well as she said she was ready and willing to give 100% and yes my guard is up and ready. but im going to tak ea step toward the right direction in the trust zone.

hey bro....

its been CRAZY last few days out here at work with all the "protests"....been on max deployment and havent had much time...

anyway, i think at the very begining i told you that you had really only 2 choices....save your M, or save yourself....

you know what the stakes are now, you know that the road to recovery will be the hardest challenge in you life...

you know enough people here to also realize there are NO guarentees, but you CAN survive....

that being said....CONGRATS....you survived the first hurtle...take a breath, and stay focused.....

CO, how are you???

havent had time to catch up yet!

stay strong!!!

sturg
sorry to see my people are keeping you busy!! i'll have you know that i wasn't at any of the protest. if you ask me i think we should send them all back to mexico ****** i feel like paying $10 for a gallon of OJ or even better i would love to know i have a college grad building my roads,schools, houses and laying my grass. see how they feel
j.k.

yeah im going to have to take it slow and be very cautious of my feelings. any ho how are things w/ your kids and the home front.