I mean - what does he want? -
Why does he get to decide all by himself? This is your life too. Why don't you get to have any say in all this?
What do YOU want for your life? Besides being married, besides trying to figure him out. What sort of activities would you like to be doing?
Because here is the thing - whether you or married to him or not, you still get to have a life. If you were to D him tomorrow, what would you be doing with yourself? Your life is not just about being someone’s wife. If he finally "decides" to get a D, what does it mean for you to be moving on with your life? I hope it doesn't just mean looking for another H. Because you can truly build a nice life for yourself that you can continue with - even if your H chooses not to.
For instance, I remember for myself, finally reaching the point where I decided to quit waiting for him, and instead start doing stuff that I wanted to do, and if he wanted to be part of that, then all the better. But I was tired of feeling like my life was on hold – like I had to sit around and wait for him to make some grad decisions about what I could do, or be. Frankly, he had all ready made enough bad decisions for me.
I new restaurant had opened in the area, that I really wanted to try. So one day, for lunch, I went there! By myself! I wanted to try it – and decided that I did not need a man to sit with me. I was nervous at first, but it turned out just fine. That gave me the confidence to join the church choir, have a “party lite” candle party at my house, and a pampered chef party. I invited friends over for dinner. And when my WH would stop by without calling, he would see that indeed I had a life, and was not sitting around waiting for him to make another bad decision for me.
What do YOU like to do for fun?
What sort of life would you like?
Of course I am not suggesting that you alienate your H. I am just suggesting to you that you do not need to tread water forever, waiting for him to tell you that you can, or can not, have a life.