Why can't they just be honest? Why do they make us believe that we are the crazy ones? Sometimes my husband has me believing that it is all just in my head. That I can't let the past go. He has been gone for 3 weeks now, tells me he doesn't want to work on our marriage anymore, although he never really has, since D-day last year. I kept finding little things that trigger my suspicions. The biggest thing for me was her perfume smell on him. I cannot get that smell out of me head, I swear I could smell it a mile away. I know what it smells like because the day that I caught him at her house, he came out reeking of it. But when he would come home from working late at night, I would smell her on him. I would ask him about it, he would say I'm crazy, that he just was sitting at her desk at work earlier in the day. And then the phone calls from the stranger about his affair before he moved out. He saids that I should have believed him over a stranger. Again he saids that I am crazy. And then again when I called a neighbor of the OW, to confirm that he was in fact there recently, he finally admitted that He was there just working, putting in cieling fans for her, putting in motion lights for her. He thinks it was no big deal. That I am over reacting, that nothing is going on. Since he has moved out, I found out from my daughter, while he had the girls there overnight last weekend, that daddy has a new cell phone. Again he denies it. Saids why in the world would I get another cell phone. I know it is so he can speak to the other women, and I wouldn't know about it, because he knows I check the cell phone records. I don't believe that he got the phone himself, but that the ow got it for him. But I have no proof. I just recieved our cell phone statement today for the month of April. Again, there are several suspicious call on there at odd hours. It does not list the number, because he is not making the calls, these are calls being made to him. But the biggest thing is that He never text messages. He has never text message me. But there are several text messages on this bill, and I know they are not to me. I know they are probably to the OW. I tried calling my cell phone company and they couldn't give me a number or any information about them. They said I would need a court sepena to try and get the information. I really need this information as proof. I will try to get it though, somehow. I just don't understand why he is doing this to us. He has told me that I was a good wife and that Im a good mother. He saids he has no other problems with me but the accusations, and that is enough for him to want to be out of the marriage. I told him that I needed him to help me trust him, to stop lying to me, and he never tells me that he loves me anymore, not for a long time. I have caught him in lies about where he has been. You can't lie and work on a marriage at the same time. He said the lying is no big deal as well, and that I would have been upset either way. How can I get through to him? I tell him still that I love him. I'm exhausted. I just want to know the truth, why can't he just tell me the truth.
