I am so confused. Our family survived an infidelity of my h. 10 years ago, but I could not forget that and I was reminding him about that all these 10 years almost every day. For last two years I been so crazy that I was checking personal emails and phone calls, calling work few times a day, was having a fight all the time when my h. would go and see friends.
He warned me to stop otherwise he would just do it again, because he tired of listening, but I could not stop.
So it did happen, but he did not continue on it. Now he is back confused and mad of himself.
I do not know what to do now. I saw a counselor one time and she introduced me to co-dependency, that is how I found out that I am a co-dependent. Sometimes I want to run away from him as far as possible, but I can not. I tried to leave him, but he called and I really can not. He says all the time that he loves me and I suspect that I do to. We have great sex every night now as we did befre, we talk as good friends, but when he talks about future - I freze..
So, as you can see total mess. Is anybody has experienced this before? Is it possible to survive this? Is it my fault?