Well, the lb'ing I did last night was. I think he is having an ea, but I have no proof. And I haven't been handling it well. I've been lb'ing all over the place. So, I wrote this letter to express my feelings. Did I do a major screw up here?
Dear G
You have always been a very good provider and have looked after your family well. You are intelligent, funny, and a very giving person, The problems with our marriage is both our faults. I know I have not been able to show you how much I do love and could not make you feel loved by me. I know that is my fault. I don’t know how to show or express love. I have always loved you, and the sight of you still gives me butterflies.
I have never been able to say how much I loved you. I never could say how sad I felt when you had to leave and business and how happy I was when you came back. I was taught never to express any feelings and so you paid the price for that. I always appreciated that you loved me anyway. You made me feel special.
But you are right that I am very angry with you. And I don’t know how to get over it.
I have never been comfortable with your friendship with other women. I always felt these relationships took away from our relationship.
After your relationship with I, I was very hurt and very angry, but I thought I could get over it. But with this relationship, I felt no longer special, but replaceable. Just yesterday’s news, Nothing to get excited about. You did pay me a lot of attention after that. I needed it. I still need it.
Now, I feel that J or C are taking you away from me. That you could fall in love with one of them. That once again, I am no longer special, but replaceable. So I’m feeling angry, hurt, and abandoned.
I am also angry that you invited your brother to stay with us without asking me first. Or giving me any details on the length of stay. I can’t relax in my house with another person in it. And I am so stressed right now.
