I feel very terrible about your situation. It is such a heart-wrenching story. I cannot even begin to understand what you must be going through. My notes may not be much of help.
First of all, you need to be located where there is appropriate level of health care. It may be CA, it may be MS, or some state that you’ve never been to.
Secondly, your family needs a cash flow. The two of you need to come up with a plan where you can make it financially. Again, it may be CA, MS, or some yet unknown state to you. That means, taking your H’s career into consideration. What are his options in CA vs MS, vs elsewhere? What type of profession?
Thirdly, you need to consider what you want to do with your professional life. As you know, California does not admit on motion; you’ve gotta take the CA bar if you want to work in the legal field again. What is your specialty? Is it in some federal practice? Can you go in-house?
Fourthly, the reason you have so much trouble with your husband, is because he is very frustrated at the whole situation. He is in a new state, with an ailing wife, without a job, with a family of four to support. In his mind, it does not get much worse then this. Yes, it is unfair to you that he acts so badly to you, but it is not unexpected. It is not what he expected when he got married. This situation would put a strain on any marriage.
Fifthly, do not push him into going with you for chemo, visits, etc. It is not the normal feeling of being uncomfortability of being in a hospital. It’s more. It tears him up inside not only because you are hurting, but also because he feels powerless. A woman friend can empathize with you and provide support emotionally and that is sufficient type of help for her to give; a guy simply NEEDS to do something about the situation in order to feel that he helped. He does not see that going to a physician with you as something useful, thus not helpful.
Sixthly, despite what I wrote above, you’ve got to take an initiative. You’ve got to show him that you are a strong woman who is not going to let cancer stand in her way of achieving her dreams. Do not “ask him to stay in CA”, but just discuss it as a partner. Talk.
I don’t know if any of this has helped you, but my heart goes out to you….