just wanted you all to know dh finally got papers. he is requesting dna test. ow claimed she only slept with him for a 3 month period, lie he was only with her for 5 weeks. he has to file within 20 days. funny earlier tuesday morning i kept getting a voice in my head to not worry, its not his. then the anxiety was strong i thought the papers must be here today. they didnt come in mail. they were dilevered at almost 10 ;00 that night.

i keep hearing its not his. im scared to believe that. i dont want to be dissopointed. i prayed with my dh, that god give us peace and that it be his will, to give me strenght whatever the outcome. but i also told dh that untill we have paper in hand stating it is his, that it isnt his and for us to not worry or stress about it.

hopefully soon this will be over. i just want this whole sitch to be gone, so i can go on. im tired of obsessing about it and it taking over my life. please pray for us.

thankyou, imtswife

I can still remember every single of emotions that ran thru me during that time, man was I on a emotional rollercoaster ride, never knew from one minute to the next how I will feel.

the hopes that it wasnt my husband baby

the fear of hoping and being let down

and the heart break knowing now you will have the real answer that it was and the pain that will come with it.

I remember sometimes not being able to catch my breath

Grasping at every moment knowing that any minute your life is going to change

Fearing the day the letter to come

But wanting it to hurry and get there so it will be over with.

I feel for you hun, it is a time I never want to go thru again.

I will keep my fingers crossed that you do get good news and be here if it turns out to be different.

hugs!!!

Imts...I will pray for you...no doubt about it....

I was more than sure that the child would be my H's....I couldn't imagine a woman going through all this for nothing...but they do.

Here is a good way to look at it....you have thought it was his all this time, so if it turns out it is, nothing changes for the worse...everything else is downhill.

Don't stress yourself...You will get through it, one way or another.

{{ImtsW}}

Imst,

It is so good to hear from you. I have missed talking to you. I hope things have been ok so far. I understand how sometimes "Not talking" about IT is also good.

I was hoping the day OC was born that I would be able to see some feature that would let me know that she was not H. The exact opposite happened...she looks exactly like my H. My H has very distinctive eyes...almost oriental looking...and OC has them also. She looks nothing like her mother...only that she is female....:) Anyway, when God is in control only the best can happen. Remember to give thanks and praise in all victories...no matter how big or small. And this is sometimes easier to preach than it is to practice...

No matter what, God will lead you through this...whatever the outcome....He is a God of miracles....that is NOTHING less than what I have experienced...truely!

You are in my prayers still!!

HI I WANT YOU ALL TOO KNOW THAT I TYPED A RESPONSE TO ALL OF YOU IT WAS LONG BUT WHEN I TRIED TO POST IT IT WOULDNT POST i dont have time to rewright it right now. im working 12 hour days and so i need to get my lunch ready and go to bed. ill try to rewright on monday,

but, i want to say thanks for being here, i trust god and pray daily that it be his will. keep yours prayers coming i need peace within and strength to get through this.

emkaydee, i miss you too. yes somtimes i have to stay away, cause it can make me obsessed at times, and i try to give me a break from it. its hard, i miss you all.

ill try to write again on mon if i can remember all i wrote.
imtswife

Stay strong and just try to be prepared to have an emotional release whatever the results.

Either way you will have a release of emotions after all this time.

hello cordellia,

yes i know yor right, ive achually had many daydreams about my reaction to either way. im a highly emotional person, its one of the things i dont like. emotions run me makes things hard. others can be strong on things and i fall apart, i have problems with depression and anxiety that really control me. i pray for god to realease me of my obsession of thoughts. anyway i know erither way im going to majorly cry. im thinking of having our pastor with us when we read the news. along with my sis. i think i will be to much for my dh to handle by himself. way to much emotion will come out of me.

ive thought in my head of what can i give god if it ends up not being my h child. thats crazy, there isnt enough that i could give him for that huge gift. i shouldnt even think like that like i said im an obsessive person, its not good. been praying alot for his will for me and the power to carry it out.

even if i dont like it, i love god and trust him, if it is my h child god has a reason for it that i just dont know or understand, but he will tell me in his time. i just have to keep trusting him. god didnt do this, but he can turn it into what is his plan, that i believe.

ive been waiting for these papers wanting to get it over with. its funny how each step of this is hard and we want to go to next step but then its a new stress untill the next step. its crazy, i feel like im crazy.

to all, please keep your prayers going i believe in the power of prayer, relieve me of the obsession of my thoughts and give me peace to do what god wants me to do.

thanks all, imtswife

imts, i wondered what happened to you.

I am thinking of you as you go through this difficult patch. If you ever need to talk, you know where to find me.

big hugs

Carolyn

thanks carolyn,

my work schedule has me busy really dont have time to be hear let alone writing in two places as im a slow typer. im thinking of you all and miss you . im really hoping for a differant job. this one keeps me out of church everyother sunday. i dont like that. i will get over there and post as soon as i can. imtswife

imts, no stress honey. just wanted you to know that i was thinking of you. look after yourself and dont work too hard!

Hugs

Carolyn