Well, I guess I will begin with my history. I have been married for five years this summer,and we have been together 6 1/2 years.In the beginning our relationship was good to great! As our wedding approached many stress began to happen and have not stopped. We have been though my spouses job loss, which meant a relocation to a new state, family issues on each side, buying and selling a house, having children, moving again.....and the biggest stress dealing with my husbands addiction to internet porn! I am not perect by any means, however I have honored our vows in every aspect of their meanings. Even standing by in Sickness and health, good and bad. The addiction has slowly affected all of our relationship...including in the bedroom. I have tried everything to make this work. But now I am at a loss. About a month ago, I found out he was still engaging in the internet activity and even communicating with others. This is after he told me all this had stopped about a year ago. The thing that makes me made is he tried to hide it from me and lied about it when confronted. I feel disrespected and just stupid. The thing that keeps me there is my kids, however my spirit is changing. All the joy over the last five years has been removed. Which makes me worried that if I stay I will no longer be the mom and person I want to be for my kids. I morally do not agree with the behavior,and to think about it this has been tohe root to most all our fights besides money. He is a good person, but I know he does not think it is wrong.....How can I stay but how can I go?
