Would anyone mind praying for me and praying that I can somehow heal through all my pain? The last 4 months of my life have been a living nightmare. I need some peace before I crack. It's all a long story that some of you know and others don't. I can't rewrite it all but for a short recap-<BR>Found out June 1st H had an affair with my best friend over the two years previous to his telling me. I felt all along that I wasn't getting all the facts and recently posted that I wanted to confront the OW. Well, I got an e amil from the OW's H and he told me one thing more that I didn't know. That was all it took. I confronted H, asked him to be upfront with me, then that evening took off in my car and went to pay phone where I called the OW's H and talked with him for nearly two hours. He also put his W on the phone. I have to say-it didn't backfire-it felt good. But I didn't holler or rant and rave. I told her exactly how I felt, how I wanted her to hurt as bad as I do, and about the things I am aware she wasn't truthful about. Oh it was good to finally come to this point but what I ahve heard has confirmed my ears and caused me more hurt.<BR>Now I need to move ahead as everyone suggests. I am going to neeed prayers. I do not know if I can stay with my H. I do not know what I will do if I don't stay here. I do not know what I will tell my kids or everyone else that is bound to ehar sooner or later as I think the other couple is going to divorce.<BR>All I ask is that anyone willing can pray I make the right choices. I haven't ever stopped loving my H-he is my world. And he truly is a good person. For some reason the two of them goofed big time-but now I am paying as is the OW's H. I have wished myseslf death-to escape the pain. But I know that isn't the answer. Can someone pray for the answers to come to me? Please? I am desperate or I wouldn't ask.<P>thanks so much-<P>*heartache*<P>"don't drag yesterday's clutter into today"

Yes, heartache. It will do me well to pray for someone besides myself.<P>I know that feeling. When something is so unacceptable that you just dread your future, and you are not knowing what to do with this.<P>I understand soooo much.<P>I will pray for you, and check back to see how you are doing. I'm glad you talked for 2 hours, and found some closure???? I hope so. <P>I will also pray that your husband tells you all of the truth that you need to hear. That he embraces honesty. And that you feel no shame for being the wife of a cheating husband, that you did not do this and do not need to feel ashamed.<P>God Bless you.<BR>M4B

Heartache-<P>I am saying prayers for you too.<P>The best advice I can give you is to lean on the Lord. He will make you strong. He will give you wisdom. He will give you grace. He will guide your path. He will show you the light at the end of the tunnel, if you only ask.<P>Best of luck to you.<P>cc

Yeah!<BR>what Mrs MFB said!!<BR>Prayers for clarity and guidence,<BR>Godspeed in your recovery,<BR>Kate

I will ask God to help you get through this.

You will be in my prayers, Heartache.<P>Lori

Heartache,<P>Yikes!! Sorry I have been missing you online. I will be praying for you. I know the only way I have made it through this whole ordeal is the Lord giving me a calm spirit. Right now, take a deep breath. You know h loves you. Slow down and don't do anything based on your emotions only. Start protecting your marriage. I'm sure you are wanting to bash h with a 2 X 4, but that would be a HUGE love buster Spend lots of time with h. Spend lots of time with your kids. When things get really tough, look at them and keep doing what is right, staying with your h!<P>God knows exactly where you are. He will carry you through this. Satan also knows where you are and will do everything he can to destroy your marriage. Let God win.<P>Mary.

Heartache,<BR>More prayers from my little corner of the world.<BR>B<P>------------------<BR>My favorite quote....<BR>"Hello, this is God. I will be handeling your problems today. I will not need your help, so sit back and have a good day."<BR>

i just saw this today, and am sure you still need prayer. i have been meditating on Psalm 62---my hope is in the Lord, i wait for HIM ALONE. i too found out, and am finding out the story bit by bit which is definately torture. i keep trying to exercise my will to not hope for closure, or disclosure or all the millions of things i 'wish' for--but to put my hope in God--in the NIV:<BR>"My soul finds rest in God alone; (finding it is not easy)...Find rest, O my soul, in God alone my hope comes from Him. He alone is my rock and my salvation; He is my fortress, I will not be shaken. My salvation and my honor depend on God;<BR>He is my mighty rock, my refuge."

i just saw this today, and am sure you still need prayer. i have been meditating on Psalm 62---my hope is in the Lord, i wait for HIM ALONE. i too found out, and am finding out the story bit by bit which is definately torture. i keep trying to exercise my will to not hope for closure, or disclosure or all the millions of things i 'wish' for--but to put my hope in God--in the NIV:<BR>"My soul finds rest in God alone; (finding it is not easy)...Find rest, O my soul, in God alone my hope comes from Him. He alone is my rock and my salvation; He is my fortress, I will not be shaken. My salvation and my honor depend on God;<BR>He is my mighty rock, my refuge."

sorry about the double post,<BR>heartache, would you be interested in being email "penpals", if so, my email is<BR>neenfun@yahoo.com

Mrs. Mush 4 Brains-<P>I have loved your nick from the very beginning You must have a geat sense of humor! I want to thank you-for the prayers and for responding. Every little bit helps and right now I need my plate heaped full <P>CeeCee & Changeling & CutiePie & Lostva & Butterfly-<P>Thanks to all of you too! I wish I had a magic wand to sprinkle fairy dust on all of you in return for your help. I wish so that I could reach out and hug and thank each and every one of you in person. It is nice to know that one who doesn't even know me can be willing to say a prayer. I appreciate it more than words can show.<P>Derby-<P>You and I are going to catch each other online and talk our heads off I was so happy to get your reply to my post. Was afraid for awhile there that you fell off the face of the earth. Thanks so much again for your support. I truly think you are the BEST!!<P>Neen-<P>Hi and thanks. Your post was touching and held some interesting details for me. I will do my best to e mail you soon. My life can be very busy with two older children adn two younger ones. That is the reason it has taken me two days to reply to all here. I am sorry for your situation and will return the favor you gave me :-)<P>Thank you so much to all of you for taking time out of yourt day to help me take a step forward. I can't thank you enough!!! Tuesdays are always bad days for me-I am not sure why although I have a feeling it is because I have worked Tuesdays for along time and I think that is when H and OW spent time together God bless you all.<P>

heartache,<BR> I'm praying for you,<BR>4 months seems like an eternity, but its not. Just know we understand the shock and pain.<P> <P>------------------<BR>Just call me - Deb<BR>------------------------<BR>The only day I can do anything about is today, yesterday is gone, tomorrow is not yet mine.<P>

You will be in my prayers and thoughts. Hang in there!

Praying....