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Well, folks...we finished the deposition today. It was crazy. Her attorney is a low life. Wanted to hang out asking questions about our sex life.
Anyway, court is Wednesday morning. I will need all of your prayers, as this will be a battle.
We know what her attorney will try to do now. Paint me into a corner as either scarey, or not wanting sex with my wife (as if that was the problem...lol!!! He actually tried to put our lack of sex on me and not being able to perform. folks, that has NEVER happened! Been some times where things needed to get warmed up...but never have I not finished the job, if you know what I mean). He is gonna try to pain me as a guy that would rather watch porno than be with my wife. Again, that is silly!
He is gonna try to paint me as not supporting my kids and family. That is even though she is the one that left, she is the one that wouldnt work on the finances, nor the marriage.
And more...
So, basically, he will take what few "facts" he has and try to spin me into someone I am not. The interesting thing is if the judge will fall for his mischaracterizations and lies. I pray that he does see the truth!!
I am far from perfect and have made my share of mistakes. But I have committed myself to my God, to repentence and to healing my family and marriage.
Mrs. Mortarman has never done so!
So, I pray that the Enemy does not prevail here. That I stand before this judge a humble man and that I do so only to do what is right for my kids. I pray that the judge will have discernment and will be led by the Lord to the truth. I pray that the Lord's name will not be besmirched by Satan winning on Wednesday and Mrs. Mortarman getting custody.
I pray that my attempt towards reconciliation will not turn out to be the biggest mistake of my life, one where my children will have to pay for a long, long time.
Folks, it is truly out of my hands now. And I can hear the Enemy trying to sow seeds of doubt in my mind. The attack is fierce tonight. Satan keeps bringing up what it will be like for me and the kids if my wife should get custody. It is overwhelming. This is the final battle. And EVERYTHING is at stake!
My entire future. My kids' future. All hang in the balance. I cannot fathom how she can get custody...how any sane person would allow that!
I say this prayer in order to admit that being this close to the edge is scary! "Lord, please help me with my unbelief. Please help me with my doubts. Please help me to stand...to know that You are the One...that it is Your decision here. Please dont let my children end up learning all the wrong things from these past four years. That selfishness works. That greed works. Lord, I ask you to watch over my kids and to protect them from this. That it be YOUR will be done."
Folks, I am out of ammo...and out of time! What will Thursday morning look like? Will everything I love and have worked so hard for be gone...a reward to a person who has actively tried to destroy me?
Life with the kids with her and OM and her calling the shots will be unbearable. This just cannot happen! It cant. everything...everything is now riding on this verdict.
In His arms.
Standing in His PresenceFBS (me) (48) FWW (41) Married April 1993... 4 kids (19(B), 17(G), 14(B), 4(B)) Blessed by God more than I deserve "If Jesus is your co-pilot...you need to change seats!"Link: The Roles of Husbands and Wives
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MM,
Extra prayers going up for favor for you and protection for the kids during the next few days. Also for peace and a calm spirit.
Bless you.
S&C
No man likes to have his intelligence or good faith questioned, especially if he has doubts about it himself. - Henry Brooks Adams
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Mortarman, I wish I could give you a real, great big hug..
((((( MM )))))
When I awake Wednesday morning, I will get on my knees and pray for you and your children.
Bless you, carnation
Me - BS 55
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Much evidence says that my H was/is
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Oh Mortar-
I'm in tears here.....I can't believe this, I'm so sorry.
This is the first I've heard of this.
Oh Mortar, I will pray for you, you have always been my rock, I care about you and your family very much, you've always been such a wonderful asset to this board.
I'm so, so sorry.
God Bless You,
-Caren
Always Look For Grace Given, Even in the midst of Grace Denied.
BS-Me 39
WH-37
Together 15 years
Married 12 years
7 kids total, His: SD20, SS18, Twin SS's 16.
Mine: DD22, DD15
Ours: DD12
Affair began Fall 04, Separated Fall 04,2 Failed Plan B attempts, False recovery of sorts Spring 05.......Still pluggin' away.
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God Bless, Mortarman! I will leave you with this scripture:
Philippians 4:13 I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.
"It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena.." Theodore Roosevelt Exposure 101
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Praying for you, your wife, the kids, the attorneys, and the judge, MM.
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In contrast..
Nothing is riding on this verdict.
Something to think about.
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MM,
Extra prayers going up for favor for you and protection for the kids during the next few days. Also for peace and a calm spirit.
Bless you.
S&C S&C, Thank you. It is hard not being able to do anymore. Not being able to affect the battle. And of course, not knowing the outcome. I want a "weapon"...I want to join the Lord in this fight. If I am going down, I want to go down fighting. But I feel that I am sidelined. That my entire life is now dependent on a lot of other people...and I am on the sideline. I want to fight. And feel instead that I am stuck out of the battle...powerless. I know I have the power thru the Lord...but I dont want to sit this one out. I want a mission...I want the fight. How in the world do I just sit by and let others decide my fate? And the fate and future of my children? In His arms.
Standing in His PresenceFBS (me) (48) FWW (41) Married April 1993... 4 kids (19(B), 17(G), 14(B), 4(B)) Blessed by God more than I deserve "If Jesus is your co-pilot...you need to change seats!"Link: The Roles of Husbands and Wives
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Mortarman, I wish I could give you a real, great big hug..
((((( MM )))))
When I awake Wednesday morning, I will get on my knees and pray for you and your children.
Bless you, carnation Thank you. I will need as many people on their knees as I can get. Including myself. In His arms.
Standing in His PresenceFBS (me) (48) FWW (41) Married April 1993... 4 kids (19(B), 17(G), 14(B), 4(B)) Blessed by God more than I deserve "If Jesus is your co-pilot...you need to change seats!"Link: The Roles of Husbands and Wives
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(((MM)))
I never posted to you before but the spirit lead me to do so, to remind you that:
GOD IS IN CONTROL
I will be praying for you and the kids
God Bless
Pepsi
Me-BxW-(36)
Him-WxH-(36)
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Oh Mortar-
I'm in tears here.....I can't believe this, I'm so sorry.
This is the first I've heard of this.
Oh Mortar, I will pray for you, you have always been my rock, I care about you and your family very much, you've always been such a wonderful asset to this board.
I'm so, so sorry.
God Bless You,
-Caren Thank you Caren for the prayers. But I want you to know that as I have always been happy to be there for you...please remember, I am not your rock. There is One that is your Rock!! And He will see you thru your own trials that you are going thru. He has the strength to handle both of our problems. I am but a man! Thans again...and I continue to pray for your sitch!. In His arms.
Standing in His PresenceFBS (me) (48) FWW (41) Married April 1993... 4 kids (19(B), 17(G), 14(B), 4(B)) Blessed by God more than I deserve "If Jesus is your co-pilot...you need to change seats!"Link: The Roles of Husbands and Wives
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God Bless, Mortarman! I will leave you with this scripture:
Philippians 4:13 I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me. I appreciate this, ML. And I do know this. I know my doubt is from the Enemy. And that doubt is sin. I need to stand against this. In His arms.
Standing in His PresenceFBS (me) (48) FWW (41) Married April 1993... 4 kids (19(B), 17(G), 14(B), 4(B)) Blessed by God more than I deserve "If Jesus is your co-pilot...you need to change seats!"Link: The Roles of Husbands and Wives
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Praying for you, your wife, the kids, the attorneys, and the judge, MM. NBII...THANK YOU!! In His arms.
Standing in His PresenceFBS (me) (48) FWW (41) Married April 1993... 4 kids (19(B), 17(G), 14(B), 4(B)) Blessed by God more than I deserve "If Jesus is your co-pilot...you need to change seats!"Link: The Roles of Husbands and Wives
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My prayers go out to you and your family.....
There is a clock on the wall ticking. I don't know where it is or what time it is but she's waiting for something. Actually, I think I found the clock. I can't see it clearly enough to read it though....
BH (Me) 46
WW 46
Married 15 years
A began - 6/05
DDay - 7/30/05
Exposure - 8/1/05
D papers served 8/10/05
A continues....
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MM
i must have confused your story with someone elses...i thought you and your wife were reconciled
i'm sorry that you're facing this battle
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Mortorman,
My prayers are also with you.
I know the fear, the questions, the feeling of knowing you can not do a thing to change the eventual outcome. It's terrifying when it's your childrens future at stake.
I came across this today. It's written on a wall hanging a very dear person gave me while going through the A nonsense.
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart & lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him and he will direct your paths." - Proverbs 3:5 - 6
My XH and I had a stalemate at our first court hearing regarding the custody of the children. The court had us keep the same plans we had which kept them with him and his OW/wife most of the time. I was devestated.
I cam back to this passage and prayed on it. I held on to "he will direct your paths" like a lifeline.
In the end I won custody but it was a huge test of my faith and my endurance.
You and your family will be in my prayers each day. I have faith that the judge will see through all the lies and deceit.
Keep your head high and your faith strong.
FIM
Do not ask the Lord to guide your footsteps if you are not willing to move your feet.
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In contrast..
Nothing is riding on this verdict.
Something to think about. Noodle, Thank you for this. My good friend who just became a pastor just called and prayed with me a few minutes ago. He sent me Psalm 37 to pray over, which I will post below. He said "MM, He has been there before for you. He will be there again. All is not lost Wednesday, no matter which way it goes. He has won. You are His. He has made promises. He always keeps His promises!" I just need to get to this! Psa 37:1 Do not fret because of evildoers, Be not envious toward wrongdoers.
Psa 37:2 For they will wither quickly like the grass And fade like the green herb.
Psa 37:3 Trust in the LORD and do good; Dwell in the land and cultivate faithfulness.
Psa 37:4 Delight yourself in the LORD; And He will give you the desires of your heart.
Psa 37:5 Commit your way to the LORD, Trust also in Him, and He will do it.
Psa 37:6 He will bring forth your righteousness as the light And your judgment as the noonday.
Psa 37:7 Rest in the LORD and wait patiently for Him; Do not fret because of him who prospers in his way, Because of the man who carries out wicked schemes.
Psa 37:8 Cease from anger and forsake wrath; Do not fret; {it leads} only to evildoing.
Psa 37:9 For evildoers will be cut off, But those who wait for the LORD, they will inherit the land.
Psa 37:10 Yet a little while and the wicked man will be no more; And you will look carefully for his place and he will not be {there.}
Psa 37:11 But the humble will inherit the land And will delight themselves in abundant prosperity.
Psa 37:12 The wicked plots against the righteous And gnashes at him with his teeth.
Psa 37:13 The Lord laughs at him, For He sees his day is coming.
Psa 37:14 The wicked have drawn the sword and bent their bow To cast down the afflicted and the needy, To slay those who are upright in conduct.
Psa 37:15 Their sword will enter their own heart, And their bows will be broken.
Psa 37:16 Better is the little of the righteous Than the abundance of many wicked.
Psa 37:17 For the arms of the wicked will be broken, But the LORD sustains the righteous.
Psa 37:18 The LORD knows the days of the blameless, And their inheritance will be forever.
Psa 37:19 They will not be ashamed in the time of evil, And in the days of famine they will have abundance.
Psa 37:20 But the wicked will perish; And the enemies of the LORD will be like the glory of the pastures, They vanish--like smoke they vanish away.
Psa 37:21 The wicked borrows and does not pay back, But the righteous is gracious and gives.
Psa 37:22 For those blessed by Him will inherit the land, But those cursed by Him will be cut off.
Psa 37:23 The steps of a man are established by the LORD, And He delights in his way.
Psa 37:24 When he falls, he will not be hurled headlong, Because the LORD is the One who holds his hand.
Psa 37:25 I have been young and now I am old, Yet I have not seen the righteous forsaken Or his descendants begging bread.
Psa 37:26 All day long he is gracious and lends, And his descendants are a blessing.
Psa 37:27 Depart from evil and do good, So you will abide forever.
Psa 37:28 For the LORD loves justice And does not forsake His godly ones; They are preserved forever, But the descendants of the wicked will be cut off.
Psa 37:29 The righteous will inherit the land And dwell in it forever.
Psa 37:30 The mouth of the righteous utters wisdom, And his tongue speaks justice.
Psa 37:31 The law of his God is in his heart; His steps do not slip.
Psa 37:32 The wicked spies upon the righteous And seeks to kill him.
Psa 37:33 The LORD will not leave him in his hand Or let him be condemned when he is judged.
Psa 37:34 Wait for the LORD and keep His way, And He will exalt you to inherit the land; When the wicked are cut off, you will see it.
Psa 37:35 I have seen a wicked, violent man Spreading himself like a luxuriant tree in its native soil.
Psa 37:36 Then he passed away, and lo, he was no more; I sought for him, but he could not be found.
Psa 37:37 Mark the blameless man, and behold the upright; For the man of peace will have a posterity.
Psa 37:38 But transgressors will be altogether destroyed; The posterity of the wicked will be cut off.
Psa 37:39 But the salvation of the righteous is from the LORD; He is their strength in time of trouble.
Psa 37:40 The LORD helps them and delivers them; He delivers them from the wicked and saves them, Because they take refuge in Him. In His arms.
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(((MM)))
I never posted to you before but the spirit lead me to do so, to remind you that:
GOD IS IN CONTROL
I will be praying for you and the kids
God Bless
Pepsi Thank you. And it does hearten me to know and see the Spirit moving. Thank you for listening to Him! In His arms.
Standing in His PresenceFBS (me) (48) FWW (41) Married April 1993... 4 kids (19(B), 17(G), 14(B), 4(B)) Blessed by God more than I deserve "If Jesus is your co-pilot...you need to change seats!"Link: The Roles of Husbands and Wives
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My prayers go out to you and your family..... Thanks Barking! In His arms.
Standing in His PresenceFBS (me) (48) FWW (41) Married April 1993... 4 kids (19(B), 17(G), 14(B), 4(B)) Blessed by God more than I deserve "If Jesus is your co-pilot...you need to change seats!"Link: The Roles of Husbands and Wives
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MM
i must have confused your story with someone elses...i thought you and your wife were reconciled
i'm sorry that you're facing this battle No confusion EAV! My wife didnt stay in recovery. She didnt make the effort to make it work. And now here we are. Unfortunately. In His arms.
Standing in His PresenceFBS (me) (48) FWW (41) Married April 1993... 4 kids (19(B), 17(G), 14(B), 4(B)) Blessed by God more than I deserve "If Jesus is your co-pilot...you need to change seats!"Link: The Roles of Husbands and Wives
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