i am usually soooooo good about not b*tching and complaining but i am in a mood and need to vent..

why is it that the one who screwed around, did all the cheating, all the lying, all the destruction, gets to live a BETTER lifestyle than me? how is that fair? my ex just got a new trailblazer. he already has an eclipse and a motorcycle. his ho drives a mustang! you do NOT even want to know what i am having to drive right now... because when ex and i split the cars went with him... grrrrrr..... i am just so peeved right now. i do not know how he can be such a shallow, hollow, evil, selfish person. i just can't. he is soooo materialistic. do you want to know how he can afford all this stuff? because of her! if he was having to live alone like me on JUST his income, he wouldn't have half the stuff he has. but he is no dummy. he shacked up with her. she pays most of the bills, so he can have his "stuff". you should see the money he has been throwing around. real good for my kids to see that. makes him look better because he has money to spend and i don't.

i'm just feeling sorry for myself i guess, and irritated. i am in school full time, i substitute teach, i work at a store... money is VERY tight right now for me. I would love to go and get a new car but i am not gonna go an shack up with someone just to use them for their money either. i know my time will come. once i am a teacher i will make good money again, and can have nice things again. i do have the marital residence but it is all i can do to afford it. it is just frustrating that is all. if he was not living with her he would not have all that stuff. and i see how much i struggle right now financially, it just doesn't seem right. i am not the one who cheated and lied and did all the stuff he did and yet he is living life high on the money and i struggle... there is something VERY wrong with this picture....
mlhb

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I am 35, blonde, high maintenance snob... hehe
ex is... I don't care...

I love how my life is going now... since I lost 190 pounds of infidel!

His affair won't last and he will be miserable again. You can count on that.

In the meantime, you know your future will be much brighter. You just have to endure.

let it out the one who backstabs always lives it up in the begining the one who gets stabbed heals and laughs at the end remember that

Just a little bit of what I have said to myself since I was just a kid.

When the day is done, the most important thing you have is your self respect. Material things get old, but your self respect is the one thing you have that no one can take away from you, unless you let them.