Me and X were married for almost 10 years, dated 5. I left him 6 years ago, after a marriage full of resentment (me towards him). He didn't fulfill my emotional needs. I was so angry at him all the time because of it. When he tried to show me affection, etc. I pushed him away. Finally, I thought that being apart would be way better than being together and I left. Moved 250 miles away. I never thought he would file for D, nevertheless he did. D final since 2002. The first year he tried to get me to come back, but the anger overwhelmed me. I couldn't get past it. I hated him. After a while, I realized that alot of our problems was my insecurity issues and anger problems. After the first few years, I kept hinting that maybe we should try dating and see what happens. He always said sure, but we just never did. We have two children together and it was difficult to speak to him, because the children were always around and I didn't want to upset them any more then what they were. Finally, in March, we had a discussion about our relationship and he told me he still loved me.....and I told him I still loved him. He admitted to some of the problems in the marriage (this is the first he has done so). In May a job opportunity came up and I moved back to his area to be with my children and I asked again if there could ever be anything with us....he says, we should try to become friends (he doesn't trust me, I don't blame him for that....I had an affair right before I left).....and see if anything happens from there.....
I love him....I truly made the biggest mistake of my life by leaving. I don't know what to do. How can I show him that I am trustworthy and that I love him and desparately want him back?
