Dh and I had a heart to heart last night. He finally opened up to me to tell me what is going on in his head. What he can make out anyway. He told me that the thing that he thinks he could never stop doing is the drugs (cocaine). He says he loves me and wants a life with me but he thinks he can't stop the drugs because he likes them too much and he doesn't want to stop. Not now anyway. Can you imagine? He wants a drug more than me and our life together! That just breaks my heart.

I don't plan on calling him anymore. I'm not sure how I will handle it when he calls me, but I can't see us having casual conversation anymore. I mean, what is there really to say? All I can do at this point is pray and I plan on it for sure.

I know God can do anything and I am really praying for a miracle here. Please pray for us.

hey i know a couple almost the same but in this realitionship the husband steals from the seperate atm account she cant take it anymore
i will tell you from growing up in nyc ive seen alot of people i know get hooked on that crap and it sucks cause theres nothing you can do until the person wants help
if you can keep your love while he self descructs great cause something will happen and bad for that matter b4 he thinks of stopping
but to tell you the thruth at his age its dangerous to the heart its possible god forbid he can have a heart attack so maybe sitting back aint the answer.
is there people in his family you can talk to or as strange as this sounds when you know hes in possesion call the cops and when hes caught they might send him to manditory rehab
i will pray for you just like i pray for the other couple ive metioned
if you have any questions contact me johnnylove75@aol.com
i know alot about this crap

and by the way dont feel bad he wants the drug more than you cause coke addicts would rob their mothers grocery money and leave them to starve
ive seen it happen a million times so dont take that personal he just neeeds seriuos help!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

jm75 thanks for your insight! The wierd thing about my WH is that as addicted as he is, he isn't taking money from our accounts. As a matter of fact, he is giving me money whenever he can. He is currently unemployed but he actually gives me money when he gets it. This I don't get.

Thanks for your prayers. I really appreciate it.

I'm guessing a plan B is in order now but I'm not sure how effective it will be to someone with an addiction.

Althought like you said jm, I guess he will have to hit some kind of bottom before he really wants help and maybe a plan B will help with that.

you know what since he aint that bad with stealing and hes giving you money you got a really good shot at beating this
tell me about who knows hes on this stuff and like i said if your uncomfortable on the boards you can email i left it up there