Hi everyone. Boy am I glad this site exists! I will attempt to give you the run-down of why I'm spinning out of control...

My husband and I have been married 8yrs...1yr was separated. That was from January '05- November '05. Of course, we didn't think we would get back together. We thought we were done and over with. We were headed for divorce.

I have a few issues regarding my ability to conceive. We've been trying since we got together...no success. Here's my source of jealousy, anger, rage, and depression...

During our separation we began to see other people...and the person he was seeing got PREGNANT! The child is now 3mos old!

I am so jealous, and angry, and hurt, and depressed that the mere thought brings me to tears and I'm extremely emotional and crazy! I knew she was pregnant when I took him back, but at the time I thought I could deal with this...we were't together at the time...he didn't cheat on me...he came crawling back to me...he realizes his mistake in leaving and wants me back.

So, why am I feeling this way? How can I ditch the pain so I can be a good StepMom?

Can anyone shed some light??? OMG I'm going so nuts with this. We haven't met the child yet...my stomach is in knots when I think about that first meeting!!

I wish the tears would stop...I wish I could just die sometimes. Anyone??

Kor

Korlis,

There is a board about 5 down from this one on the main menu called "Pregnancy/Child".... Please head over there and re-post your story.... There are plenty of men and women who are dealing with 'Other Childen' in their marriages.....

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