Hi Everyone,

just a little rambling thougts about how I'm changing...

I'm coming to some self realization. I can let him go...though I feel like he could use some help and he doesn't want mine and that is fine...I'm so ok with it.

He can do or say anything now, I'm ready, anything... armor isn't something you wear because you want to go fight or you want to hide it just is.

It is nothing you have to do just "have" it there. I think I'm getting it.

Just don't let the insults and attacks get past the armor and the armor surrounds an unlimited supply of love and respect that I have for myself and my WS and my DSs and every other human.

Boy...I'm feeling enlightened this noon hour.

I am feeling strong...and I'm surprised it doesn't feel like I thought it might...it is better than that. It has just kinda jelled...It isn't a vicious fight the armor is to protect the love I do have...it isn't because I'm a war monger looking for "battles"...yet if this is the kind of battles that they will be...it's good...it's so good...you grow in this love.

I suppose my armor will jell more...at least I hope and perhaps someday I will have a nice patina...and I can pass some wisdom on to someone struggling to feel God's love and protection.

Strongest...striving to be the strongest I can be in love

You go, girl. Just don't lose sight of what's important...your kids and how you rise after you fall. I think you are rising quite well.