What an incredibly hard 6 Months.
This is a follow up from 2/05/2006:
http://www.marriagebuilders.com/ubbt/sho...part=1&vc=1 Where do I begin? It seems as if I blamed myself initially. Now that I can think half way clear again.. Our problems stemmed from me wanting her and her doing everything she could to be away with work, friends, etc.
On 8/19/06 my wife came back to me. I was reluctant but quickly gave in. She carried on a relationship for about 6 months and misled me several times with back and forth. We were going through divorce with lawyers court and all. I sold our home, took a huge loss. Came very close to losing my business and mind.
I consumed myself with finding answers and to this day still do. I found out just about everything imaginable.
My problem is that I dont think I will ever believe her. I dont respect the things she has done. For christs sake, my wife kept contacting him after coming back. Messages as such "Hearing the way you say my name makes it hard to be faithful:, "Remember seeing the dolphins". These messages the other guy sent me. The other guy and have had our share of conversations. My wife after receiving her share of money from home took this guy to "our" vacation spot (Seminole Hard Rock Hotel FLORIDA). We were suposably working things out and she lied and I found out the day she left that he was with her. The whole time she was with him on vacation I received messages. "I am So Sorry." I do love you" etc. I also sent to other guy. This really happened frequently with situations like this and he needed to know why I was the way I was.
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ON 8/7/2006 I sent this to the OTHER GUY:
His Name,
Terri stayed with me wed night. She misled me again with her i love you's and crap. She slept in my bed. I stupidly believed her ****** and even worse, ****** her. She spent the next day tightying up my place to her likings after a morning ******. You should know this. It's not your fault, its mine for believing her. She is a lost misguided soul and unfortunately the woman i fell in love with and boared my children. I am sure you can understand and relate to my position. I am sure if you could change things in your past relationship, you would. Mother of your kids is something that is hard to deal with in this situation. Call this crying, Call it what you want. I dont care. Family is number 1 and we did have 11 Years together. Since our seperation we have been intouch daily. I try hard to ignore her but she knows the buttons to push and I too call. I know this is not your problem or fault. It sucks that My family and yourself have to deal with this. Just a bunch of bull. This is the same s$#@ over and over. Remember a few months ago the three way call (NOTE: She had sex with him at ten that evening then stayed with me and had sex with me). she is lost. How many times will she do this or has she done this. How many times will I give in? Wish I could just write her off!
ME
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I know she is trying hard now and I think she is being true but I just cant get over it. I hope to hear advice from you and ANY questions you may have, please ask. I could really write a book about the past 6-7 months.
