After what I have done to him, he doesn't need to be with someone like me. He is too good for me and he deserves better than me. I do love him but I want him to be happy and in order for him to take this pain away, he needs to get rid of me.
Well the first thing you can do is to, “START ACTING LIKE A WOMAN, and not a child”. All this pity only makes you look “pitiful”. There ARE better avenues for you to pursue. How about this scenario:
You adopt the concepts and ideas behind this “Marriage Builder” website including, “love bank”, “emotional needs”, “radical honesty”, “love busters” and all the rest. Then you use that information to make a better person out of yourself and while you are doing that you allow your husband to benefit from your gain. You perhaps teach him the things you are learning so that he too can become a better person. It appears from your earlier posts that he is not without some serious relationship flaws himself.
In short, you and your husband become EXPERTS at “love”.
If you are truly serious about what your husband may or may not deserve then perhaps you will consider that what he NEEDS most is someone that will love him and not abandon him in the storm.
If you really want to help him then, “don’t give up!” Stay the course, don’t lose sight of your star and above all, “don’t be a coward”.
In one of your earlier posts a fellow named “Just Learning” answered you plea for help. His response to you was “on the mark!” Go back and reread his post to you and hopefully you glean the wisdom that I suspect went right past you.
Remember this, YOU are likely what your husband needs right now; now the ONLY question remaining is, “Are you up for the task at hand?”
Mr. G