I hope I can explain this ok being that I already feel so confused. My H had an ONS 15 yrs ago (10 mo. into our M) I found out in June of 06. So while recovering from this we also have had some problems before I found out about his ONS that we had been trying to work on. My H hasn't met alot of my EN's for quite awhile, he has always been a good H but I have always felt LAST priority to him, something that has bothered me a long time and yes I became resentful especially after I tried telling him how I felt. He has tried working on it and he does good for awhile but then gradually I start to feel last priority, or when he is with me, I feel like he's being forced and he doesnt' really want to be there and that his mind is thinking of doing other things. I don't know if it's just my emotions but I seem to pick apart EVERYTHING he does, I don't want to do that. I want to spend time with H. My H had surgery 9 mo ago, and after his surgery he wanted me by him ALL the time, if I got up and left his side he complained. I felt needed by him and finally first priority to him, he cried and told me how sorry he was for making me feel neglected, said he understood he took alot of time away from me and that when he was able he would prove he would change it. He was pretty much bed/couch ridden for several mo. Well I had his 100% attention during those mo. it felt great, I finally had a H who was interested in only me. Well now that he is geting back to normal and can do things again, I'm not always so needed and wanted because he can do things himself, Am I picking him apart out of fear? He has changed alot of things but sometimes I feel like he touches the computer more than he does me, he wakes up to the computer, doesn't say anything to me when he's getting out of bed, just goes right to computer, I told him we need to put lips and arms on the computer. LOL. I just feel like I can't give him affection alot not only because we're in recovery of the ONS but because I feel like he's not always meeting mine, or maybe he is I'm just never going to think it's enough because it's not what I had for all those mo. Does this make any sense? THanks