Nothing really has happened or is happening. Maybe that is why I am feeling so down. H is still living with OW. He said he was moving out to think and make a decision. A month after moving out, she and her daughter move in. They are still there. H says it's temp. while the road to her apartment is repaired from the hurricane. Well Friday I did some major love busting. We were on the phone and I asked about his "company". He doesn't want to talk about it. Never does. But I need to know where things stand. Do I hold on to this little bit of hope I have or do I move on with my life? Anyway, we ended up in a fight, and I was torn up for the rest of the night. He did call back the next morning to appoligize. He explained the whole situation about the living arrangements to me and that he has not made a decision yet. He said that this is the hardest decision he has ever had to make and that he would not keep me dangling on a line if had made a decision. He told me that he understands that it is hard on me and that he doesn't like to talk about it because he knows it upsets me, but he also knows that I will not tolerate anymore lies. I felt better after that. He said he would call us (son and myself) first thing Sunday mornig. He called around 11 am. I said to him (joking) that I thought he had forgotten us. He said I could never forget about you. He said it three or four times. I want to feel good about this, but I don't. I feel sad and uncertain. Anyway, I really wanted to vent. I am tired of being alone, and I don't have anyone to talk to about this. Thanks for the ear.<P>------------------<BR>To thy own self be true.<BR>*Viki<P>

I have big ears. Always willing to listen. My boat floats with yours. Shall I help you paddle?<P> You know people say that you should deal with your problems head on, I offer a different route in this case because it is the route that I currently travel. Try to focus on something else, myself, I am trying to rededicate my life to God and become more involved in my church. <P> While some see this as running, I see it as gathering my strength for what I know lies ahead.<P> I will help in anyway that I can. I will add you to mt ever growing list in my prayers.

Thanks Paul. I have been working on myself. I have been recovering from Clinical depression, I see my therapist every week. I am working really hard on me. Thanks for answering back. It meant alot.

pondvj - This is what we're here for. I know how hard it is - just waiting and wondering and it drives me crazy sometimes, too. <P>Just hang in there, you're doing just fine. Good that you're working on you. My friends here tell me to expect these bad days and they will get fewer and farther b/n.<P>I'll be praying for you.<P>Lori