Well, <sigh>
I have come to this. I fought a hard fight, I never understood why? but I accepted I may never know or need to know. I gave in, I pushed away, I begged, I cried and I still cry within me.

WH had an affair 5 years ago that resulted in OC. He stopped that affair in 03 and moved in with another woman and her children for the next 2-3 years. All the while I waited , I prayed, I was never gone. He would call me on a daily basis and text me constantly. He always said "when I come home, we will be a family, me you and our son". He broke up with the last relationship he had and moved home. He held my face in his hands and said this feels right, this is home. The next 3 months were horrible. The drinking , the anger, the abuse were all there. As hard as it was for me I told him to leave on Oct 25. of course he did.

My prayer request is for me, for me to understand that this is what is best, that all the blessings the lord has for me are there and will be given to me. For me to be a patient mother with my child. For me to let go of what I once had as it is gone. For me to move on.

He is in another relationship, we dont talk at all, he doesnt call or text. I still wait. But I will be the one filing for divorce. I beleive that God answered my prayer for him to come home , so that I would see that is not what we need in each others lives. My child saw his father strike his mother, he witnessed the yelling the fighting and I couldnt deal with it anymore.
My heart still hurts , I pray for me. Lord heal me.

Thank you all..
Happy Holidays and remember when one day at a time gets rough take it one hour at a time.

I will pray for you.

OnthePath05 - "if the unbeliever leaves, let him go."

God is a God of Peace to those who love Him. He does NOT want you yoked to an unbeliever who is unwilling to be a "godly" father and husband even if that person won't "bend his knee" to God in humble submission.

Suffice it to say that YOU must, for your child's sake, model standing for God and His commands even in the face of personal difficulty and tribulation. It is NOT easy to do, but it IS the "right thing to do," to be faithful to God regardless of circumstances.

Why do you think that Jesus allowed divorce for adultery?

Because there is little more devastating to a faithful spouse and because adultery destroys the covenant relationship WITH God. As has been said, "you cannot serve two masters," and adultery is forbidden by God. That leaves Satan as the "proponent" of adultery because Satan knows how damaging it can be to everyone's relationship with God, including the faithful spouse's relationship.

YOU did not choose adultery, your husband did. God does NOT require you to remain in an abusive marriage, to protect you and to protect your child. "Right and Wrong" is established by God and is NOT "relative." Stand for God, and God will be faithful to His promise to those who are His children and who love Him: And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. (Romans 8:28


God bless.