Its decided...my husband and I have separated. I guess our pain outweighs our needs too much. We have tried, and I know we love each other, but its just not enough.

I am now lonelier than ever. I feel dead inside. I guess I would rather have his verbal abuse than not him at all. I dont know what to do.

My kids are so upset. They are half relieved and half thinking...OMG where is my dad. They have seen us fight so much this past year, and I think this may be for the best, but I feel a horrible depression coming over me.

My children need your prayers...as do I. Please have him give me the strength to get up and go to work tomorrow. I have to keep it together for my kids...but I just don't know if I can. We moved to a different state to get away from our mistakes. Now I know no one. I dont have much family anyway, and all friends were given up as...well he slept with most of them. I have no where to turn and I am all alone. Thank the Lord I have my 3 wonderful babies.

trying2holdon, I'll be sure and pray for you. I know how it feels to be seperated from one you care about deeply no matter how poorly they treated you. Right now it feels like it's killing me. We dated/lived together for 11 mos. Big mistake on my part for agreeing to live with him. If we could have started off differently, things might be different between us. But I know you two are married. I felt married.
If you don't mind could you keep me in your prayers too? Right now I'm having to take benzodiazpines just to keep my sanity. I was litteraly falling apart. Either he has to change through counseling or there can't be anymore contact. I have to survive somehow and all he does is drag me down. I love him, I miss him, and I cry every morning when I wake up. I have no motivation to get up and live even. fortunately over the course of the past few weeks some friends are coming to my rescue. None from my church, which hurts - they were all met at a bar. But they are the ones that call me, spend time with me (even away from the bar) and encourage me in getting on with my life.

I will definetly pray for you - please pray for me too!!
God Bless you and be with you - always!!
Becki

Father, I come to you now in prayer, that you will fill this dear child of yours with peace who is feeling all alone. Lord your word declares that "the joy of the Lord is our streangth" and I pray that you will open the eyes of her understanding right now, let her know that you absolutly adore her, just like she is. For your word says that she is the apple of Your eye and that you are always for her and never against her. May she now take apon herself your yoke which is lite and easy and give all her burdens to you my God. Reveal to her the truth, that she is born from above, a brand new creation, all things have become new agian. In Proverbs you teach us that as a man thinks in his heart, so is he, that we must gaurd our hearts will all diligance because out of our hearts will flow every issue in our lives. Father help her to persuade her heart that You love her unconditonally and that in her times of sadness, all she needs to do is think on You my father. Lord you said, "the theif comes to kill steal and destroy, but YOU Lord come that we my have LIFE and have it abundently!!! Thank you my Lord Jesus that your words are true, and you will now fill her heart with Your peace joy and love like she's never felt before. In your precious name I pray, amen.
God Bless,
SH