Hi there. I'm 26 (almost 27), married for 1.5 yrs (second marriage) with 3 great kids, ages 8, 6 and 2. I always felt God sent me the perfect man. I call him "the last perfect man on earth". I never thought I could ever betray my husband. I did.<P>My husband works in retail management and is salaried which requires a lot of hours. I am a stay home mom, and work p/t as a DJ for a local christian radio station on the weekends. So my social life consists of children and a microphone <P>Several times I had expressed to my H that I was lonely and needed something he wasn't giving me. I think I just couldn't tell him exactly what it was. ( I wish Ihad read the "emotional needs" part of this site 3 months ago!) He began to get frustrated after several months of the same conversation. I didn't like to make him feel that way, so I stopped trying to get what I needed, since I didn't even know what it was.<P>I met a man during those rare moments out of the house and under the presumption of he and his W and me and H all doign something as couples ( I thought maybe socializing would help us feel closer). He and I got along great, and we ended up meeting and well, it went from there. We met a few times, talked on the phone a lot, and eventually got way too intimate for two people married to other people. <P>We stopped and agreed it was a mistake. It had been long enough, however, for feelings to develop. I never considered leaving my H, he's too wonderful. How could I do this then? I don't know. I wasn't even thinking about it. It took me that long to realize I was even married. Out of my head I think. <P>After a couple of weeks I broke down and told H about it. He was very hurt, as expected, since his ex wife had done this to him. But, she ran around and drank and did all sorts of things. Stayed all night, flaunted it etc. Not that I'm better, that's not what this is about. Anyway, he decided to stay and work things out. We're too much in love to let it go because of stupidity. So regardless of my feelings for the OM, H wins. Hands down.<P>So now here it stands: Om is out of the picture for the most part, H is trying harder, changing hours so he can be home, being more attentive, and basically improving on almost perfection. I am remember all the reasons I fell in love with him, and trying to rediscover my faith. God was a huge part of who I was before all this, and I began to doubt things before I met the OM which I think had a little to do with it.<P>Anyway, we're recovering, and my marriage is looking great. W/D sucks, but the prize is well worth it.<P>Thanks for listening all<P>Tracy<P>------------------<BR>"I can do all things through Christ, who strengthens me."