I can't believe it has been a year now. One year ago today, I went to the grocery store and came back mid-morning to find my husband's car at home. Then the terrible feeling of knowing that he would never come home in the middle of the work day, that something was horribly wrong. And the shock of his words "I've been seeing a girl at work, work found out...."

Those words have played over and over in my head, so many times. But I guess the good news is, I can type them today without much emotion. No anxiety today, or grief. Because I know that I have survived his affair. The past year has been the most challenging of my life, but I made it through it, and made myself a better person in the process. And I feel good about that.

I want to thank everyone who has posted to me, and all the "old-timers" whose posts help so many of us. I don't think that I could have made it through the last year without these boards. I needed to know how other people made it through this on a daily basis. And I needed hope. I found that here.

I hope that someday my husband and I will be a MB success story. We are still kind of getting through this one day at a time. Sometimes I have so much hope, other days I fear things are going to fall apart at any second. Part of the roller coaster ride, I guess. But thanks to all of you, I know that I will be ok, no matter what.

I am still dedicated to the marriage. And I know that it is time to work on "real" recovery. My husband has just never quite been at that point. He still feels that he can never be in love with me again. So we have a long way to go. But I am focusing on something Steve Harley told me. That love is possible for us. Because we were there once. And if we were there before, we can get there again.

My children were only 3 and 5 last year when their Daddy wanted to leave us for OW. Everytime I see their little faces light up when he comes home from work, I am so thankful that I found these boards. To me, the posts here do so much more than help marriages. They often help keep children's families together.

So thank you again for your posts. And if you are new, please hang in there, keep reading, and listen to the experts. You will get through this, and you will be ok.