Hi all,<BR>I give up. This thing is not a marriage, maybe it never was. I am too old and too tired. Yesterday I almost hit him. I cannot let the rage in me come out. I was the abused child of an acholic father and married for 11 years to a horrible man who not only physically abused me but also our children. I spent many years single, learning to love myself and when I married H almost 24 years ago I thought I knew myself and him enough to have a good relationship. Somewhere along the way he decided that the rules were for someone else. After he broke the rules and upset our world he became angry with me. Enough of this.......I have tried to get on with it but the hurt he has inflicted is evidently not enough to satisfy him. He will not be content until I grovel at his feet. I probably will not post here again as I don't plan to try to rebuild this marriage or ever have another. I told him I would help him pack his clothes and find a place to live tonight. Life is too short to spend it crying. Thank you Sheba, TNT, and all the others who have tried to help. I will come and see how you are doing. <BR>Love, Karen<BR><P>------------------<BR>alleyoop<BR>

I'm sorry it came to this.<BR>I wish you well.

Karen - what happened?<P>Why did you almost hit your husband? What is wrong? I know things have been going okay again until the last week or so. <P>Don't leave the forum, please????

The ups and downs of this board are amazing. I'm sorry to here your stance Alleyoop, you sound as if you've given up on love all together. Tell me this isn't true. I'll remember you in my prayers

Excuse me ----you get your little butt back here and tell us what's going on there Missy!!!!<P>Karen - What happened? Now you've gone and made me crazy here!!!! <P>Sending prayers up for you both and also some BIG HUGS!!!!<P>Just remember we love ya and are here for you......come talk to us.<P>Hugs,<P>Sheba <P>