I haven't posted here in a long while, but there are some things I need to clear up. I told some whoppers while I was all messed up this summer, some fueled by paranioa and others by fear.
I was diagnosed with biploar disorder this summer, and that on top of the affair did not make for a lot of emotional stability. So here's the real story

I didn't tell my H about the affair until the end of July. I have made several contact errors since then, such as a letter to the OM and a myspaace beth account. That was in the fall. I told my H about this forum, and he was very hurt by what I said.

My H is not gay, has never been gay, and has never done anything to suggest that he was gay. He has never cheated on me, and he does not look at porn. he is a wonderful, forgiveing, and patiant man whom I have hurt terribly. He was the victim in all of this. I chose the affair, and I hid it for far too long. I want the lying and secrets to stop. That is why I am posting. If you have any questions, please feel free to respond. I am so sorry for this.

lurioosi

Lur,

Thank you for owning your what you did. I don't remember your posts...did you post in the Infidelity, General Questions II forum?

Why not move your post there?

How is your marriage? Your BH? How are you doing now?

Welcome back...

LA