My H came home from overseas-got into town late Tuesday night-Called to see if he could stay at home and I said no. But he came by the house the next morning while I was still there and I ended up having to see him-He packed his things and finally left this morning-It hurts all over again-I know, deep down in my heart, that it is really over b/c he is not capable of loving anyone or able to commit to anyone. This is such a deep loss for me and I hurt so much. I have been hurting like this for 5 months and it seems like it is never going to go away. It seems like all I do is cry. It affects my work, I know my friends and family are probably tired of hearing me cry all the time. My co-workers are not very forgiving or understanding so my job is not a happy place to be either. I am alone in this house and know very few people here where I live. I feel like I am in the darkest hole and there is no light.
Does it ever go away? Will the pain ever stop? Will I ever not wake up everyday and walk around with a heavy heart? I do not know what to do-where to turn-who to talk to (I am in IC once a week)-I just feel so lost and I cannot remember what it felt like to be happy, to smile, to laugh, and not to cry. Does it ever get easier? I could really use some honest and sincere support right now. Thank you

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H68,

I know things will get better for you and you'll be able to move on and your joy will return. Do you have a faith you celebrate?

i'm so sorry this is happening to you

Talk to your Doc about an antidepressant which will most definitely help you.

((((HOPING))))

Hey Hoping,

I’m sorry to hear your Wednesday did not go as well as you had hoped.

I know this all feels like it will never get better, just take one day at a time; otherwise it can all get very overwhelming.

Rely on your family and friends, that’s what they are there for <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" />

My situation is somewhat different to yours, but I am just over 6 weeks down the track and although I have some bad days (and my own pity parties), it is getting easier, little by little.


Thinking of you ((((Hoping))))

K

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Thanks everyone for responding. Mimi, I have been on AD ever since the entire beginning of all of this but I still hurt so much. Today is better than yesterday but it still hurts and I feel that it is still a strong loss. Its kind of like I am grieving a death.
BIO, I do have a strong faith..I pray to God all I can...sometimes I feel like my prayers are not being answered though. Maybe I am too impatient b/c I am so uncomfortable.
Thank you to everyone for great words of support. I really appreciate it.