So, about 5 and a half years ago, after being together for 2 years, and our daughter was less than a month old, my fiancee went to Vegas without me for a tournament. After he got back, about a month later, I found a video tape of him confessing to have been with strippers. To make a very long story short, he said it never happened and he was just "joking" and making things up to "the guys". Well, i deceided to try to believe him, and give him another chance. Everything went well for 5 years, and I was starting to fully trust him. I have always been a jealous person anyways, and that made it worse, about a month before Christmas I think it was, I found some emails, and information that he had been connecting females with someone to get them into adult videos. At that point, I was so amazed, I didn't know what to do. Instead of walking out on him and him mot knowing where me and the kids were, I called him on it. He agreed to almost everything. The things he didn't agree to, were some of the emails. He said one of the other guys must have done them, because he realized how wrong it was and had backed out by that point. He said the only reason he did it in the first place was for income. I am pretty sure that I do believe him on that. He does seem very sorry for what he did, and he knows that it was wrong. My problem now, is a major lack in tust for him. I want to be with him, and I want to love him. He has always done almost anything for me, and usually teated me much better than I treat him. He works in a bar environment, and I am very nervous that he will be unfaithful, or that someone will tempt him. How do I trust him again, and stop getting mad at him for things that happen at work that are not in his contol, such as a particular co-worker (who is like 15 years younger than him) walking around with her pants low so you can see her hip bones and her shirts short enough that you can see about 5 inches of skin? I know she is not his type, and I know I shouldn't worry, but I don't know how to trust anymore, and I hate feeling this way. It is eating me up inside.
