Dear Lord,

I hang my head down because you trying to teach me humility

I think of all of those in the Bible that rejected you and you were faithful until the end

I guess I cannot look back and say what if I had not done this

I have to look forward to say how I can repair this

I know the scars will be there forever as a sign of my error

I open my hands and look up and hope that the day will come where I can feel clean

I hope the day will reach me when the sun shines and the clouds disappear

I hope you will be there

I hope that my life will once be a testament to something good

I hope that I can give back everything that has been given to me

I hope that I can affect one persons life so that they learn that what I have done serves no purpose

I see no light right now

I read today that you will withdraw as a test of what we will do

I hope that you have not withdrawn from me for too long

I ache and feel ill to the core of my being

I hope this will someday end

My only hope is that Lord you will show me how to do this

I pray, Amen

Thank you for writing this from your heart....we believe that your testimony is already being used as something good. I know that my sun is starting to shine and the clouds disappearing thanks to this program and the teachings therein. May God bless and keep you both and richly bless your marriage and future.