Rin,

So sorry for your loss!

Condolences, condolences, condolences!!!
I'm sooo sorry for your sudden deep loss of your uncle & tragic news!!!
Praying for you!

Praying for the family Rin




We got the same call today in the boat. My dad and brother worked with him. I'm sure they will be at the service. I get the feeling your Spon's husband works with my brother b/c I think Don was working with him currently.

small world

You and your family will be in my prayesr tonight.

Thank you everyone I really appreciate all of your prayers and support...

BC- Yeah, it was Don...

E- When I think of seasons, I think season of change. I have an idea in my head of starting with Fall...the leaves changes color, fall off, and winter starts...

Than, just like a bear or a caterpillar, you rest, change, grow, and then, in spring there's new growth...you can actually see the changes that have taken place...spring is like a rebirth...a new you steps forward, all the better for the changes that you had to make to get from fall to spring.

Summer, to me, is a matter of taking the heat and forcing the changes.

So, there's what I know in relation to the seasons, perhaps it's better that we start there...

bump for E

Rin,

I've been following your thread off and on. YOU GO GIRL!!!

What a wonderful job you are doing taking care of yourself and F and L.

You are in my thoughts and prayers today.

Thanks Lizzie! Good to see you around! I truely understand where you were coming from when I first started talking to you...about how you where ready to move on...

This D can't be over fast enough for me! LOL I feel so good not being around him...I didn't realize how much it drained me!

looking forward to an update! <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" />

OKay, I need some help...I feel like I'm about to go off on the deep in...

I called the para, I'm picking up the money from STBX at lunch from her office...I asked about the letter from STBX's A...nothing yet...

I asked if we knew one way or another...NO...I'm going into assumptions! Like he's just killing time...not thinking about the wellfair of his kids...what's he going to do next?

If I didn't have so much self-control, I would call his stupid @ss and b1**h him out! Of course, I'm thinking the worse because my patience are running out! I'm the one that gets to hear the kids say how much they miss their toys, not their DAD, but their toys! Their room, the PS2!

I'm just venting so anger and trust me I have no intentions of calling Ahole...he's been selfish since I met him...

You know I may regret cursing him out right now, but I am tired of these little games...his little controlling tactics...

Just let me know yes or NO...are we moving in or out...SO "I" can move on with my life...

I've had about all I can take of freakin LIMBO LAND!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Rin,

Let it all out! You have every right to be mad and frustrated right now.

You are venting in exactly the right place. You are wise in knowing the any interaction with STXH is not worth your breath.

You ARE in the "homestrech" (pun intendee:)). You have come this far and the end is in sight.

Hang in there!!

Breathe Rin, Breathe

It's good to get it out. Just don't forget to BREATHE

Hi, guys, I'm trying...I am so trying to hold on...I don't get upset in front on the kids...I usually wait until I'm by myself...

I just don't see how a Father can do that to his kids...I am SOOO tired of waiting...hold on to my sanity...

How could he treat us SOOO poorly? I can't imagine picking myself before my family...what kind of S.O.B. does that?

60 days today! 60! 45 days served! Who in there...LOL...I was going to say "right mind"...LOL...that's a joke...would say before I left....go find an apt.

How mean is that! he would rather have his kids in an unknown enviroment...

I'm breathing! To think this is the man I chose to have children with, who I "thought" would protect me...

Just more grieving the illusion, but I am so angry and hurt...I can't wait for this thing to be over with! Then, all I have to do is deal with him as far as the kids are concerned...of course in my mind, I think that will be easier!

This doesn't act like a man who told me I could come back if I wanted too...that he knew I didn't believe him...well, i have full right not to believe his lying, sorry, self-center, mean, low-life @ss...

I know what would happen if I went back, I'm not stupid to fall for his lies anymore...that would only give him permission to treat me like dirt even more!

You know I haven't cursed him like this since I left...I don't think I have felt this much distaste for him! Just pure disguise!

I went to the bank and was thinking on the way over there I should go buy me some huge paper and I big RED marker and so go to town...curse him lower than a dog...

He's an immoral, controlling [email]jack@ss![/email] This is what kills me, to me it's like he still is in control! I mean he's going to do everything he can to keep me where I am...I am so tired of him...

At least "I" can see how far I've come because last year at this time I wouldn't have hestiated to call him up, argue on the phone with him, tell him exactly what I think...so I guess if I think about it that way then I'm in control...

He's no longer able to control me with my reaction to his treatment of me...

Dear God, please I pray that you humble STBX for his own good. And please father, grant me more patience...In Jesus' name I pray...

Thanks for listening to me...

((((BC & Bugs)))

SB,

This may anger you and you have every right to be angry.

It shouldn't suprise you. I see how you keep saying what kind of ......

Your STBX thats what kind. No I wouldn't do what he is doing, you wouldn't do what he is doing, most of us wouldn't.

I don't know about your state but I can tell you in mine I wouldn't be able to leave my home. But see that is without the kids. If we decided on custody and had that custody in place pre D or pre me leaving that would be one thing.

You can see with distance come's calarity. You are seeing the panoramic view of the STBX and now you can see the entire picture.

So far it doesn't look that good and maybe that is why he is your STBX!!!

It sucks but at least you have started the long process. Imagine if you didn't you would be where you were when you did instead of where you are now.

Oh, Frog, thanks...I'm better now, just needed to get some of that out...

I cry when I'm mad...I feel much better...

I think that's why I'm sane!

Every once in a while I just need to get that off my chest...the whole cleansing the soul...

yes, I can definitily day that PLan B has afforded me some clear thinking...

I go back and think of the analogy that you used with the art, small and big, pictures...

however frustrating that this may be, I still like my choices and wouldn't change my sitch...

I got this...I'm doing it and I think I was granted more patience...becasue I'm so much more calmer than I was...

I think it was about my break time at 10, that I started feeling like something was wrong and called the para what @ 11:30 and exploded from there...

Bouncing back faster and faster these days! Good to know!

Confusion is a good way to distract somebody from being angry.

Good job Frog! <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" />

BC, you missed me post and that slipped by me!

Well, I TMed the cheating SOB with the time and dates of the wake and funeral...just didn't tell him where!

My way of taking the higher ground...I was nice enough to call him yesterday, just to let him know...

Reading the notable post page has given me some ideas!

Guess I'm still p!ssed off! Oops! Oh, well!

Hey, Rin.

Just checking in.
So sorry for your loss, especially when you've already got enough turmoil going on.

Sounds like things are getting pretty frustrating, having to keep waiting on the lawyers. Hopefully they'll have something figured out soon, but at least you have your new court date coming up if they can't.

I'd bet that your STBX is getting all kinds of conflicting information on whether or not he can/should move out of the house. I think the standard line most people give is "whatever you do, don't move out of the house, you just give it up that way...". And attorneys are slow, so I'm sure that's contributing to the foot dragging.

Can you imagine how quick the attorneys would have this settled if THEY had to live in someone's guest room, with two kids, while they worked it out??? <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/eek.gif" alt="" />

Anyway, sorry again for your loss, and for your sick kiddo. Hang in there, it's a marathon, you just have to keep the pace a little longer.

-AmI.

Oh, my AmI...you sneak in on me! LOL

Good to see you...i really like how you put it with the marathon...I really like that!

L's feeling better, MOF, I let him play in the pool yesterday for a little while, AFTER I made him take a nap with ME <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" /> ! I love cuddleing with him...he's so little...his head was right under with his arm over me...same thing with me...i would have loved someone to take a picture of that!

When I got back from the hospital, F met me at my car and asked if I was okay! They are so thoughtful...joy of my life...

I can tell you NOW, my kids are accepted when I find someone new, he can HIT the road...there's NO WAY I would pick someone else over my kids! But that's a whole other story!

For the most part, I'm doing good...it's the whole snail race with the laywers that's really grating on my nerves...

Of course, STBX doesn't believe me but I told him one time during a discussion that even if I left he wouldn't get the house b/c the judge would rule for the mother and the kids anyway...but he didn't believe me on alot of things...

Oh, well, I just needed that little venting session...it's been what since April 24th...since I heard that I'm a lesbian, living with another...newsflash...that would matter anyway! At least I waited until I left the lawyer's office! LMAO

Hey, Sorry i was pretty busy at work today.

Once I get the kids taken care of tonight I'll be back on, probably around 8.

I also have to read and process FH's response on my thread - it's quote long and detailed.

I have not forgotten our discussion.