[color:"blue"] I'm tired of crying and trying to explain myself to my partner. I've even thought and came to the conclusion that i might just be the one whose going crazy. that this "problem" is just me- but i cant help but think who else is okay with their significant other being SUPER close to another person of the oppisite sex, NOT TO MENTION that this partner of mine was engaged to her cousin. I dont think i will ever be okay with that. and its not even about being selfish, because its okay for him to have friends. but why her? there are still "ties" to his EX-fiance there with her being in his life, and even tho no one mayever act upon any opportunity-it still bothers me. oh, and just to throw it in there, i know that this "friend" of his doesnt care to even be friends with me. shes fake. and im drained of trying to explain how i gave up everyone for him (that he didnt feel comfortable with) and i was okay with it...we even fought to the point of me passing out on sleeping pills cause i couldnt deal with it, i didnt want to even be awake to hear another excuse as to why he should still be friends with her.... to me,its my wish. and it would make me happy...so why isnt he willing to make me happy..i;ve bent over backwards for him, why cant i get the same?? the phone numbers were eraced out of his phone and that was that, untill now- i found out he was talking to her not even a day after we fought to death about it...i thought he changed..but now its all just a big slap in the face....and I've tried to see it his way! really, i did! i tried to be friendly to her and TRIED to like *her*, but i just cant be fake like her and find myself to like her...i will never be okay with them being so close...thats supposed to be my thing with him..were supposed to share that "closeness"... i will never feel comfortable! and from the looks of it i cant change his mind/him or his actions......
i dont know what to do anymore....i've invested so much into this relationship....and hes a great guy.... but this is the simplest request of him that i ask...to at least try to distance yourself from her.... but NOPE, he goes behind my back and calls her...and they exchange phone calls at work.... there is more to it all, but its just too much to write <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/teary.gif" alt="" /> [/color]
