Yes, I know it is actually the 26th. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" /> We are leaving tomorrow, not quite sure what time, for what would have been a wonderful Canadian getaway, just in time for our 11th anni. Well, the problem with mixing work and pleasure, is if the work changes as the last minute, so does the pleasure. Now we are only getting away to Sweetwater, MT, lol. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/rolleyes.gif" alt="" /> (Instead of the Nordic Center in Canmore, AB. Better luck next time.) I'm not actually complaining. We're together!
So here is what 2 years out looks like:
I am happy.
I am finally getting the roses back in my cheeks.
I have an attentive husband, who loves me and wants to meet my needs.
I am an attentive wife, who loves her husband and wants to meet his needs.
I go many hours without even thinking about the OW, especially now that school is out and I am not driving up near her house every day.
I have the darlingest little garden, which is so healing to work in. I would recommend gardening to anyone as a very important part of building a new life.
I post on MB, and even when it is about my own experiences it feels like I am telling stories about someone else. It is hard to believe that sad, broken creature of 2 1/2 years ago is me.
I sing happy songs.
I play silly games with the kids.
I rassle around with my dear husband, who can - and does - beat the pants off me every time. (Sometimes literally. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/blush.gif" alt="" />)
I have found that even my residual thought patterns/reactions/etc. from being a BS are not needed, had simply become a habit, and it has been mostly easy to set them aside.
I have developed enough confidence in my fogometer, that I trust it to detect if there were ever trouble again (which I doubt), than any sort of external devices, such as snooping. This was a very important step, because there has to be a transition from checking his email and TM's 50 times a day in search of reassurance, to trusting him (and myself) enough to just begin living.
I have continued to be very grateful for the lengths AJ has gone to, in order to remain transparent. We have all each other's passwords, and complete access to every part of each other's life.
<img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" />Did I mention I am happy? <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" />
Jeremiah 31
3 The LORD hath appeared of old unto me, saying, Yea, I have loved thee with an everlasting love: therefore with lovingkindness have I drawn thee.
4 Again I will build thee, and thou shalt be built, O virgin of Israel: thou shalt again be adorned with thy tabrets, and shalt go forth in the dances of them that make merry.
See ya when I get back! <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/wink.gif" alt="" />
