Good day all---

It's been a while since I've posted. D was final in January. It's been over a year since seperation.
We settle on the house in 2 weeks.

And I am angry...no wait...fuming.
I have been for the last few days.
I am bitter b/c I have been living in my parents basement for 6 mos. xWH has been living with his OW in an ocenfront condo since Oct.
In fact reports say 'he's never been so happy'

The following are facts I know why I'm angry...
- i've handled the divorce, sale of the house, move...w/o help from him.
- since being a sahm for the past 3 years i've had a hard time getting my foot in the door (feelings of rejection all over again)
- my mom and i are constantly bickering over who knows best about my raising my children
- everyone else has moved on and i am still so hurt
- i've taken an active role (divorce care, al-anon, ic) in my recovery but i still feel as if i'm in a pit
- the bills are piling up and i am scared

HELP!!!
I hate this side of me. My children deserve better.
M

Many of us feel our children deserve better.
It's great that you've sought help outside. Perhaps you need some more outside help. In my area, there is something called the women's crisis center which helps women recover from many events. They have a displaced homemaker program for retraining careers. They offer discussions on verbal and emotional abuse. And they offer free counseling. Look for something like this in your area. And your mother could come in handy for babysitting if you can get help.

Getting over the anger is hard, but it is a step in grieving, and eventually healing. Know that you are not alone and that many of us have felt how you feel now. There is a light at the end of the tunnel, it's just hard to see right now.

When we are down, it helps to count your blessings. So for now, think of 5 wonderful things in your life. And a friend says that every day God puts the sun in the sky as a gift to us. Think of this when you are sad.
If necessary, seek a doctor for AD meds.